It_will_get_better Posted February 22, 2015 Posted February 22, 2015 Dear LS members I have read LS forums since I broke up with my ex girlfriend. Till now I didn't post anything but today I'm just hurting a lot and wanted to share my story with you. I'm coming from non english speaking country so my words will not be perfect but hopefully you will understand what I wanted to say. In 2010 I met this beautiful, loving girl. She had everything what I was looking in the girl. After few dates we felt in love for each other, 6 mouths letter we were living in my apartment. Everything was going great occasionally we had some minor fights and disagreements but we were always able to smooth things up, with talking. We also talked about childer and getting married after she finish college. In the end of 2013 I had to move to another country. My employer was moving production and I was offered a new and good paying job. Together with my ex girlfriend we agree that I should take this opportunity and sign a contract for one year, we also agree that she will stay in original country, since she still had to finished some exams. In this year apart we spoke every day by Skype I also visited her every second month, occasionally she would also come to visit me. Things started to change in the end of my one year contract. In September 2014 she got a new job and after that I stared noticing that she is slowly drifting apart from me. I ask her what is going on and shed said that everything is OK, but my intuition was telling me differently. I confronted her, I said if she is not happy with me we should break up (remember I loved this girl very much, this was something that hurt me also) , she started to cry and beg me not to do this. I thought that she is being onset with me and that I was overreacting so I calm myself down and after that we just stared to talk normally and pretended like it never happened.. Last week before my arrival home (end of contract) she stopped calling me. I knew something is wrong, I called her and ask her if we are done as I couple, she never answer my question she was just quite and act like she don't care. At this moment I knew that is over. Till the day I come back she was still living in my apartment , all of her things were still here when I arrived home, I thought that she will come back and that we would be able to talk things through. But this never happened, next day I just got the text from her if she can pick up her clothes and stuff. I immediately called her and ask her to talk but I just got a cold answer that everything was already said??? I didn't understand this since she never give me the straight answer why is she quitting on us. I couldn't stand to watch her move so I said that I will pack her stuff and sent it to her by mutual friend. After two weeks of NC I decided to checked on her, I was hoping she will at least be able to give me a reason so I can move on. She didn't want to met me, she just said she is hurting and it not a good idea to talk now. I tried one more time after 2 weeks. This time she agreed for a coffee. When we had coffee we didn't talked about break up we just talked about random things, after coffee she invited me in her new apartment, I couldn't restrain myself (I loved this girl very much) so I kissed her at first she allowed me but then said that she can not do this so I backed up. After that I mention reason for break up and she said that she was feeling mistreated from my family. It was strange for me because my family loved her as they love me I know this for a fact. This was the last time I saw her. Later I found out that she was in relationship with her new boyfriend just few days after our break up. Now I know that she lied about everything. As I heard she already dumped this new boyfriend and got another one, she also starred to partying and spending money like crazy, something that she had never done before, she used to despise those people. I just can not belive how can somebody move so quickly and forget about relationship we had. I give her home, I give her love, I give her financial security and eventually we could create family. I'm 29 years old and she is now 26. Because of her I left good paying job, (I could easily stayed in new country and prolong my contract) lost a lot of weight, and almost fell in depression now my life is totally messed up . I remember the day when I was confident person with goals and now all this is gone. Luckily I got job here, but I'm not happy with it and I can not find motivation for it. I also don't have any close friends, fortunately I still have my family which helped me a lot. All the things in apartment remember me at the good days we had as a couple.... I know I have to forget about her and move on but there is always some voice in my head which is telling me that I should contact her, I know this is not a good idea so im sticking to NC. She is not the same person I knew before. Hopefully one day she will regret what she did, because I know I had loved her with all of my heart.
Darrk23 Posted February 22, 2015 Posted February 22, 2015 Hi, Break ups are painful as eff and I know they hurt more when you find out the other person moved on long before you did. This is going to hurt and its going to break you more than it has but you can't run away from the pain and lost. Face the pain and the memories and find a way to let your feelings out. Write, go out and meet new people, find a hobby. This is the time you focus on you and stop yourself from sinking more. She will not be there to save you my friend so you have to save yourself. Stay strong.
Author It_will_get_better Posted February 22, 2015 Author Posted February 22, 2015 Thank you my friend. I will try to reinvent myself to become better person and hopefully one day I will be able to forgive her what she did.
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