Bibi1798 Posted February 18, 2015 Posted February 18, 2015 Physical, verbal, sexual abuse in my childhood. Cutting, drugs, alcohol, truency, sex in my teens. Depression and obesity much of my life. A series of no-good long term relationships in my younger adult years. Ive finally let go of most of what I let hold me back, I'm feeling normal again. I always felt like sex was supposed to be how we got our pleasure, so I would pick somebody, do it, and feel disappointed more often than not. I've been abstaining from sexual contact for almost a year now, with a drunken fling with an older man that left me feeling less than good over six months ago. Well, last week, I masturbated for the first successful time. I did it again the next couple days. More than I have in all the years combined. It was great, though I did feel a bit wierd about utilizing porn. I still feel tension though, so maybe I should do it more, and start working out. Exercise is hard. I'm a smoker and I have bad knees. I'm just really pleased with myself that I no longer feel the need to rely on others to please myself. Love yourself first, right? Oh, and I'm 25. 1
Otter2569 Posted February 18, 2015 Posted February 18, 2015 I like to say that if you don't love yourself then nobody else will either. It sounds like you are off to a great start...keep up the good work!!
preraph Posted February 18, 2015 Posted February 18, 2015 You're going through a process of shedding all that stuff and discovering yourself. And masturbation is healthy and also free entertainment. You are slowly building yourself up to become who you want to be. Good for you!
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