Cedar27 Posted February 14, 2015 Posted February 14, 2015 (edited) For the last four days i've been housebound with the flu. Fever of 103, night sweats, aches, the whole nine. Obviously in this condition i'm not thinking right. My ex and I recently had our last and final "meeting" where we both expressed our desire not to talk to one another again. I told her how I felt about her, how I wanted it to work, etc. She said she still sometimes has feelings for me but doesn't want to be with me right now. She told me she would call me if she changes her mind, but right now she needs to be alone and away from me. Fastforward 5 days later. I get deathly ill. Since I am in rebuilding mode in my life its not like I have a ton of people to reach out to. I know I can't call her but when you are really sick you start thinking about dying, the meaning of life, etc. You aren't thinking on all 4 cylinders. My immune system is shot because of the stress, and I still have a fever 4 days into this wretched flu. I want to reach out to her so bad, and it pains me that I can't. She used to comfort me when I used to get sick, she used to worry about me, and now I know if I call/text her at the very most i'd probably get forced sympathy, at best. I just wanted to vent here. I know I won't contact her, but the desire is just eating me away. Has anything similar happened to you guys? Where during a crisis/illness shortly after break up you just had the urge to reach out because of the situation? Edited February 14, 2015 by Cedar27
whichwayisup Posted February 14, 2015 Posted February 14, 2015 I know you want to reach out but don't..... Call your mom or sister, they can make you some soup, possibly take you to the Dr if need be. Calling your ex in hopes for her to look after you or show you care isn't right and you might be setting yourself up for a HUGE hurt. What if she ignores your call, or worse, answers and tells you to leave her alone (even though you're sick with the flu). Having that fever and feeling yucky anyway is a bad combo to reach out to her. 1
Oregon_Dude Posted February 14, 2015 Posted February 14, 2015 Whenever I wanted to contact my ex, it was because I wasn't doing well. I never called/texted her when I was feeling good about myself... quite the opposite. Realize that you are vulnerable right now due to illness. When you're feeling better, you'll be grateful that you didn't contact her. The ship has sailed. What's done is done. Try to accept it, and get support from your friends and family. 3
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