Ex is hurt and said we would never be together again but still loves me a

[Beachtea]

So I've been going through this break up about about 5/6 weeks.

We are both females and we're together just over 2 years.

The main issue was when we first got together I wasn't sure about my sexuality so would hide her from everyone, I said we would never be together and did some things I'm definitely not proud of. (No cheating!)

She put up with this and we had a minor break a year in, from then I have fixed my issues she had and opened her up into my whole world.

She has always struggled to get over the way our relationship started, but we were so close, so much love and best friends.

She was going away all of January and late December told me she needed a fresh new year and to see other people and could never be with me because of the hurt.

I spend all of Jan moving on, really struggling but hoping that the time apart would make her want to be with me again.

We finally met up when she was back even though we had very limited contact, we got dinner on the Friday night, was amazing, she was all over me and I thought we could take steps to move forward, sent her a nice message when I got home but never heard back.

Fast forward to Sunday she invites me to see her and her dad so I go, we kiss she is all over me and wants me to stay over for cuddles.

We start talking about us and she is crying saying she is sorry about us but wants me to see other people, she said she loves me so much but we started the relationship wrong and she can't go back. She also said she's been seeing a guy for 2 dates (she's only been home for 2 weeks!) and spent all of Saturday with him and his friends and said that at least everyone knew who she was unlike when we first got together..

I soon after find the box of condoms under her bed.

When I confronted her she said it's none of my business. So I said I wish you all the best and walked out. I know she is confused about what she wants, but I am so hurt that she was all over me Friday and Sunday while probably having sex with someone on Saturday night.

I know there is so much love between us, do you think that time will heal her pain from how we started 2 years ago? She wants to be with me but just can't because everything reminds her of the bad times.

I'm going NC and going to move on. I know I was great to her after I fixed my issues. But I'm thinking the damage might be done. She said we will never be together again. Thanks guys.

[Elituf]

Yeah its over move on, if you don't go NC then your just going to keep pouring salt into your wounds.

[noob_saibot]

no contact is the way to go, once you start to let go, thats when they always come back. but you will be a different person, before your relationship was your life, but when they come back, a relation is just a small part of life. there is no more fear or jealousy , if they leave you dont care, because who needs someone like that anyway. and they will keep coming back n back n back. its how it works

[Beachtea]

Thank you for your feedback. That's what I needed to hear. If they come back they do, but if not it wasn't meant to be.