Was mirin' that ass (random story, just had to clear my mind)

[endlessabyss]

It was exactly five days ago, SuperBowl Sunday, me and my friends went out to a gathering to eat and get drunk......and watch the Super Bowl. I had a good time being around my friends, eating, drinking, but the real fun didn't start until we left the gathering, this is when the real party started.

 

 

Sitting at the gathering, everyone asked me if I was going out afterwards to continue to party, and I kind of didn't want to at first, because I had work at eight, but said screw it, and went anyways. When we all hopped in my car, one of my buddies recommended the strip club. I have never been too fond of strip clubs, because it is a tease, plus a waste of money. It was only my third time going to a strip club, and this experience was so different from the last time I went.

 

 

Essentially, when we walked in we got drinks and ones, and sat down in the lounge area, a couple of my friends went right to the bar where the women dance. I tried to stay low-key, because I really wasn't trying to spend any money. My friends eventually got me to the bar, I threw some ones, then back to the lounge I go. Shortly after, everyone wanted to go out an smoke; I don't smoke, so they asked if I could watch their drinks. As soon as I was seen sitting by myself, strippers galore. The first one was cool to talk to, I asked stupid questions, like what her name was, not thinking she would tell me all fake information (like I should have thought), if anything interesting happened to her that night, and some other stupid shyt. After five mins. she was back on the grind, and shortly after this another stripper came over. This one really attracted me. She was no more that 5'5, and was drop-dead gorgeous, from head to toe, black hair, bangin' body, she also had the chillest personality.

 

 

After about ten min of talking, my buzz was turning up, and I asked about private dances, and they really weren't a lot, and I was trying to burn the money I had on me/enjoy my night to the full. So we went to some private room, and a min in, having that gorgeous, naked body in my face, I asked if we could just have sex. All she asked for was a little more money, on top of the initial charge, and we were good. Due to me being drunk, and not giving a shyt, had no condom on either, screw it.

 

 

I thought afterwards she wouldn't of talked to me for the rest of the night, due to awkwardness, but she came back up to me later, and we bantered for a while. She would go and dance, get done, come sit right down next to me again. It was funny, some of my friends tried getting her attention, but she still stayed seated next to me the whole time, and we talked about how shyt life is a lot of the time, drug problems, struggle etc etc. We were just kind of listening to each other, hearing each other out. I kept eye contact with her the whole time, and those eyes had me hypnotized. She didn't ask me if I wanted anymore dances, asked if we could exchange facebook's (I don't have one).

 

 

I must confess, that her brokenness turned me on so much. I really wanted her so bad, but I know logically the whole interaction was based off lies and deception, but those chemicals in my brain were going crazy. The whole week, all I could think about was dat ass, and those images of her dancing through my head, even having feelings of going back, but knowing that would be a chump move, so just moving on was the rational thing to do. Even riding to work this week, the songs she danced too were playing on my iPhone, and it made me think of her that much more.

 

 

After that night I just feel more motivated; I don't know why. It also made me realize how being with a women is far superior to being single. It feels so good just to talk to a woman, and be able to make some sort of connection. After being single, for going on three years, it really intensified that feeling of wanting a female around. I'm not entitled to anything, and have totally forgot what mutual attraction feels like. Plus, I've been abstinent from anything sexual for months. I've cut everything out of my life, but couldn't keep strength this night. I caved into the temptation.

 

 

Yes, I know I may get bombarded with HIV/STD comments, got checked out yesterday, and was clear. Have to wait anther six months to be cleared for good. Personally, I don't fear if I do. Men are slaves to sex, it's hard-wired in us. Look at all the misery it causes when you don't have it. Look at all the time that is invested to get it, unless you have top notch genetics, inherent charisma, or something valuable to give.

 

 

I think after my break-up I became a little jaded at women, but after this night out, it has made me appreciate female beauty more, it's just a little heart-breaking you can't always have it lol.

Edited February 7, 2015 by endlessabyss

[Gloria25]

You know, I've heard that men aren't that "logical" until sex happens...after sex, the guy has his thirst quenched and starts looking at the woman's "other" attributes. That's why for women, it is in our best interest to form a strong bond/connection/knowledge of a guy and his intentions cuz after sex, a bio/chemical/physical thing happens and we women bond with the guy.

 

I think this chick's "brokeness" will hit you and you'll probably diss her after you have sex, cuz you're not thinking rationally right now...unless you have a "Captain Save a Ho" complex and pursue damaged/drama/damsels in distress women.

[endlessabyss]

You know, I've heard that men aren't that "logical" until sex happens...after sex, the guy has his thirst quenched and starts looking at the woman's "other" attributes. That's why for women, it is in our best interest to form a strong bond/connection/knowledge of a guy and his intentions cuz after sex, a bio/chemical/physical thing happens and we women bond with the guy.

 

I think this chick's "brokeness" will hit you and you'll probably diss her after you have sex, cuz you're not thinking rationally right now...unless you have a "Captain Save a Ho" complex and pursue damaged/drama/damsels in distress women.

 

 

The "Captain Save a Ho" thing came to mind when I thought of going back to the club. The chick had so much emotional baggage, and had been through a lot of problems in the past. I could relate, because I have too. But back to the point, I told myself that going after someone like that is futile, as well as a joke.

 

 

Personally, there is something about broken women that I find attractive. It's sort of like their "I don't give a ***" attitude. My ex was like that, and some other girls I've hooked up in the past were like that too. My ex taught me a very valuable lesson when she left me though. It takes a certain guy to deal with these girls, and I still haven't discovered what the trick is.

 

 

The intense feelings towards this girl have passed though. I learned how to deal with these feelings years ago. I have no desire to contact her anymore.

[Gloria25]

It takes a certain guy to deal with these girls, and I still haven't discovered what the trick is.

 

Yea, there is such a guy....he's emotionally, physically, and/or financially destroyed after she blows through him like a hurricane.

 

Thing is, you try to save a "damsel in distress" and you end up with a "distressed damsel". We all need a little help from time to time, but for the most part, people gotta handle their business.

 

And yes, IMO, men naturally have a desire to provide and protect for a woman, but need to apply that desire appropriately.