starmar Posted February 2, 2015 Posted February 2, 2015 I haven't been on this site in a while and while searching "drunk texts fiasco" this site came up. I figured this is the perfect place for feedback and to release some pent up emotions. So, without further ado, here is my story that I like to call " the unfortunate series of events" I met a guy years ago on a Facebook group, he was actually a neighbor and we instantly started a friendship. Both writers and had many similar personality traits. I was attracted to him but he is married and he, apparently has been a cheater for some time, so he didn't think it was a big deal. I know huge red flag and character defect. But, in all honesty we all have them. (character traits, not cheating married friends) So for a couple of years we were friends, discussed different books and I would mention some of my issues with dating, etc. I should also mention that I am divorced. My husband cheated, and it is a sore subject. At a low point and after two years of friendship I fell for it and made the serious mistake of sleeping with him. Not proud of this AT ALL. and beat myself up over it for some time. Even went as far as starting dating a really, really mean person. I think I was punishing myself. He was acting like he was hurt I was dating someone else but I needed to get away from that situation pronto. Last year he came back around to trying to get physical with me. This time he was going through a "Separation" and was planning on moving out, etc. I foolishly went out with him (the friendship bond was strong) and then I found out he was working things out. This was last year and it lead to me sending him a series of angry drunk texts calling him every name in the book and blocking him from every social media site. (sigh) I felt really bad because I hate being mean to people. He apparently "forgave" me and months later came to my place of work saying he wanted us to continue being friends. History repeated itself last night. I sent him a series of drunken texts saying that married men who cheat are pieces of sh*t etc. SIGH The friendship is over I'm sure and I'm ok with it. My reaction was due to: guilt feeling disrespected (he kept trying to get me to sleep with him again) guilt anger guilt so, the friendship is over I'm sure. But why do I feel bad? I think that I will never become friends with a guy who is married again, it is just not worth it. I feel out of control with the angry drunk texts and a bit psychotic really about them. Thanks for reading this far, just needed to get this off my chest.
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