Taltanic Posted January 30, 2015 Posted January 30, 2015 A few months ago I found the app Whisper on my phone. For anyone who doesn't know what this app is, it's an app where you post text on images to people with the app around your area but it's anonymous. Anyway, this girl posted on this app saying she was really depressed and heart broken. I sent her a message saying that if she needs to talk to someone, that she can talk to me. She asked if I had a kik and said yes and gave her my user name. We quickly started talking 24/7. She started massively hitting on me after a few days and I started hitting on her massively back. After awhile I told her that I really like her, and asked her out on a date. She said she wanted to take things slow. So I said okay. But after a few days she just kinda stops hitting on me. Then after a week she's like "I'm feeling sick, I hope I'm not pregnant lol" then I said "awww I'm sorry" and she followed by "would it change anything if I was...?" then begins to tell me that she had sex and is worried she is. I asked her more questions and she admitted that she started dating someone. I asked if she still liked me and she said "Yes I do....". We kept talking and every now and then she'd kind of hit on me but not as much as before. I started to like her more and more and more, then realized that honestly I love her. After awhile admitted this, and she was shocked. Then after a week, when talked I asked her what she's doing and she replied with "... Something" and I asked and she said she was "being naughty" and I said "Oh sounds like fun ;)" and she said "don't encourage me, I'll just get louder and attack you". I then said "Ok you're sending a lot of mixed messages... But you have a boyfriend...." then she replied and honestly I was just feeling too hurt at the fact she was dating someone. So I stopped talking to her. So anyway after a month of not talking, I started talking to this person on Whisper and after awhile of talking I find out that SOMEHOW it was her. We started talking and she said that she's missed me more then she can stand, told me that she had a dream where we kissed very romantically and she woke up crying, and just a lot of stuff in that subject. Also said the next day that she had a dream that night with me and could feel her heart beating really fast and how it amazing it felt and that she had been thinking about it all day long. So since then she's been hitting on me a lot, always wanting to talk to me, every time I can't talk she keeps going "awwww.... no.... Don't leave :(" We talked on the phone 2 times for a few hours one day, and we still talk on the phone a lot (she calls me randomly a lot and wants to talk on the phone alot). One time she was saying a lot of suggestive things to me and told me that I have beautiful eyes. (We even talked on the phone for 4 hours last night) I asked her how she feels about me and she said "Mixed... I'm hurt but...." asked her more questions and she said it was complex and I asked her to try and explain and she she didn't reply. When I was gone for a day because of a trip, when I finally got back her first response was "OMG HUNNY!!!!!!!!!!". and we talked for hours non stop and she kept saying she didn't want to go and to stop talking to me and got really sad when I had to go to bed saying "Get some sleep hunny, that way you'll have lots of energy to talk to me all day <3" After a day we had an hour long talk about kissing each other lovingly, she was saying stuff like "*Gets on your lap as close as possible kissing you lovingly and playing with your hair*" she kept saying that her heart was beating really fast when talking about this and kept saying things like the whole kissing you lovingly thing. Then it got a little more sexual and she said she was moaning and going "crazy" and then later said that "if I was a guy I'd be really awkward at the moment". I've gotten messages days later that saying "Kiss me" and other things. When I was having a panic attack yesterday because of a talk with my friend she sent me this really long message saying how she's really upset at what had happened with my friend and sad because she feels my sadness, saying she deeply cares about me and that she'd do anything to help me feel better. I asked her how much she cared and she said "Deeply. Enough to fight beside you and for you and to do anything for you" She then said "Tickles you to make you laugh and kisses you on the nose" I said "laughs and smiles big and kisses you back on the nose" then she said "blushes deep red and smiles wide. But you missed....* I replied with "Holds you as close as possible and kisses you on the lips Did I miss that time? ;)" and she said "mmmm hunny you didn't miss at all thats what I wanted" So my problem is as follows, I don't know what to do. I don't know if she has a boyfriend still, or why she feels "mixed" and I don't think I can get some answers from her. Part of me feels like I can't talk to her without being in a relationship with her, but not talking to her hurts so much. Part of me wants to say "Listen. I love you as you know. I don't know if you're still dating someone, or why you're mixed. But I just want you to know, that if you ever do want to date that you can always ask me and my answer will always yes and that I promise to be the most loving date, to always be there for you, and to do anything for you" I don't know if I should do one of these 2 things, or if I should just wait and see what happens, or if there's something else that I can't think of that I should do. Honestly my thoughts are that she's just really scared, we've never met, and so on. That she really likes me, but has a lot of fear. I really need advice so anything you guys say will be helpful. Thanks for reading.
Author Taltanic Posted January 30, 2015 Author Posted January 30, 2015 Yeah sorry there's kinda a lot of information that needs to be said to make the story make sense.
thecrucible Posted January 30, 2015 Posted January 30, 2015 You guys haven't even met so you don't know what's going on until you see her in person. 1
preraph Posted January 30, 2015 Posted January 30, 2015 When you meet, it won't be anything like what you imagine. Take a breath. 1
Author Taltanic Posted January 30, 2015 Author Posted January 30, 2015 Thanks to everyone who replied. She was feeling depressed a few hours ago and said she "wanted to escape" so I told her that if she wants she can escape here (We live like 30 Miles away). She said "But what if when you see me face to face your feelings change?" so I think that the root of a lot of this is just fear. Both her and I are bipolar, so I think she's just very nervous to meet me and hides from it. As I can see and understand given we both have the same DX. So should I just give up on it to save myself from getting hurt over something that could never happen? Do I just go along with it and see what happens?
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