I really can't let it go/ can't stop thinking about her :( at the minute

[Lockey1995]

Hey,

 

I've posted 2 topics I think on here about a girl I was speaking to you'll know it aha. Anyway this last week I've felt terrible Depressed, low had no motivation for anything it's just not this that is getting me down it's the fact I've recently been let go from a job I'm stuck on jobseekers allowance which to me I hate I feel like a ****e person and I want to get off it as soon as possible and find work again.

 

Thing is If you she wasn't really interested in me to begin with/ or just lost interest without me actually doing anything wrong I would be fine and I'd have been fine. But every morning I just wake up and go "****!, why did i do that/ this/ send that etc and I'm just tormented by the fact that I am the one who completely messed it up and it's driving me to the verge of panic attacks it's got that bad over the last couple of days. But I guess you have to make mistakes in order to learn from them and i guess everyone does.

 

But I'm just annoyed because I highly doubt I'll find anyone like her for ages, she was the same as me shy/ quiet enjoys the quiet life etc everyone near me is in to partying/ drinking all the time and I'm not that person at all and I refuse to be that person. I've had no motivation to do anything over the last couple of weeks not even my hobbies gaming/ carp fishing etc. I've just felt so down and have no idea what to do.

 

Well, yesterday I sent one last thing just a funny picture after that I've deleted her number, texts etc if she replies then good but I'm convinced she never will but I won't send anything else.

Thought I'd post it here as I posted a topic in here to see whether I ruined it or not.

Cheers, Jack

[preraph]

Sorry this isn't working out for you, but I'm glad you took a shot and asked her. I guess she's not interested after all. Maybe what looked like shy interest was embarrassment or awkwardness. Maybe she's really so shy she can't make herself go on a date. Please celebrate the fact you asked her out and don't beat yourself up. She might be mental. It may be all her issue and not yours. Keep asking other people out. The worst that can happen is you don't hear back, and that's really not the end of the world.