Koans Posted January 22, 2015 Posted January 22, 2015 (edited) "If you love something, let it go, if it comes back its yours", but what if you scared her away by still being emotionally weak at the time. I have wrongfully told her that I'm still in love with her and turned around and said she'll never find anyone as strong as us and called her a coward in the same breath and all her wrongs. Is it then my job to initiate contact once I can handle it?. I can't expect her to initiate twice. She probably is holding on to my last word. And I'm different now. I forgive her. I understand her. We broke up Feb 2014, and she rebounded till July 2014 and resurfaced. I think she got with another guy 2 or 3 months later. Coz she's been posting things that seems so out of character. The twist is her and her best friend randomly blocked me this past DEC/JAN. All with no contact since her resurfacing. And the bigger twist is, although I don't follow her on Snapchat. She follows and watches all my snaps. So again...please save that "move on focus on yourself" speech. I get it. I heard it. I just wanna know if it's my turn to initiate contact once im good. Good in a sense where I dont have the desperate feeling of needing/wanting her. And if I choose to make it more, to keep it light with understanding. Thanx. Also any interpretation of her psychology would be appreciated. She's the dumper. I see my wrongs. I didn't court her properly. And dug my own grave during the break up. But she also didn't tell me what bothered her. Kinda on some passive aggressive tip and told her family instead which ended up hating me. I left not knowing why we broke up. I had to go into deep thinking into putting the pieces together. Yea if we got back, she has to be more communicative. I get it. I wont blindly go back. But I feel rekindling is there. Idk i just feel it. Just don't want it right now. Time is on my side. Edited January 22, 2015 by Koans
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