Maximboi23 Posted January 16, 2015 Posted January 16, 2015 I havnt seen her since thanksgiving and last spoke about a month ago. As though days are passing by and I can't stop thinking of her every second. I go to gym 6 days a week and go hardcore and that whole time she and her son is on my mind eating away at me. This is the most painful thing I have ever went through. I loved them both to death and still do and now they r gone because of me and my mistakes. I wasn't thinking rationally and pushed her away and didn't know what I wanted or I felt trapped. We were engaged and maybe I felt nervous for the next step in marriage. I have never given any of my ex girlfriends a ring before or take them to my therapy sessions and I did for her because I loved her deeply. I go to sleep thinking bout her till I wake up which is the worst part. I think she has moved on Because In the beginning I saw her facebook and it said in relationship. I just don't understand how someone can move on so quickly and forget about the 2.5 years together. I did everything I could for her and her son. And I don't regret any of it. I wish to God everyday that she Comes back and forgives me but I know that seems unlikely now and it breaks my heart. Everything triggers my thoughts from Being in my car to the booth we sat in at my restaurant job. Everything triggers me. I avoid the mall because we would always go and spend fun times there. I hope to god I can heal from this and be a better man. I wish I can make it up to her and be the best man to her and would marry her but I know she is gone.
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