travelonic Posted January 15, 2015 Posted January 15, 2015 I've met new people, been doing tons of new things, yet 2 years and 2 months after my experiences unfolded, and my ex 's unhealthy obsession with someone outside our relationship finally tore us apart, and it still bothers me - once and a while the memories come back and kick me in the ass hard, the memories flood back randomly... and I haven't quite felt the same after all this time, sometimes like I'm less able, or having a harder time doing things - personal projects, etc (which is also strange since I also have finished a few as well), like an overhanging feeling dragging me whenever I try to do things, that doesn't stop me, but slows me down. Admittantly, my ability to not be nervous, and flaky in talking to people of the opposite sex has kinda been hit or miss, sometimes I have no trouble, othertimes it is very hard... I dunno, this feels weird. One thing that bothers me I guess is that I felt like I found nirvana, in this case the blend of personality that I sought in a S.O - similar enough where my quirks needed no explanation, and we understood each other on levels that were, to some, kinda scary... and something happened that made that time end horrifically, and now I'm left desiring that blend again, and also wanting to not end up like I did 2 years + 3 months ago, and also wanting to feel like my old self again so far as creativity, and passion to do things goes. Hope this rant makes any sense... >_<
me85 Posted January 16, 2015 Posted January 16, 2015 Sure it makes sense. I'm sorry you still feel the sting/aftermath 2 plus years later but I'm approaching 2 years and still feel a lingering sadness myself. Just do your best and don't ever get mad at yourself because you still feel a little sad or effected by it. You'll eventually fall in love again. I promise this won't last forever. Nothing does. Take care.
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