I wish I could say this to you face to face x

[Avante91]

I miss you so much it breaks my heart,

Every minute, hour, day we are apart,

I love you still more each day,

But you left me and you walked away,

I miss your smile, your voice, your laughter,

Without you here my life feels a disaster,

I miss the way you held me tight,

You re assured me everything would be alright,

We had our share of fights we are both to blame,

But why do you continue to play mind games,

You told me to leave you and believe me I'm trying,

But inside my heart feels as though it is dying,

I've cried so much I could fill up an ocean,

An unconditional love you were my true devotion,

I am not prefect I do not profess to be,

But you really brought out the best in me,

I hurt so much I know it will pass,

It will be slow and gradual not quick and fast,

Deep down I don't mind that it hurts me so,

It just proves the love was real and my heart doesn't want to let go.

 

I think of you and I do still smile,

We had something special there can be no denial,

You are not coming back now I accept you've moved on,

But tell me then why I feel so wrong,

I still get butterflies when I think of you,

I hope one day your butterflies will flutter too,

I love you baby I need you to know,

I'm not over you yet and not ready to let go.

 

I would wait for you if I knew you would come back,

But you've kissed someone else now my heart feels black,

I truly thought you were the one,

How naive of me we are but young,

I wish you well sincerely true,

I can't imagine my life had I not met you.

 

What we once had was real it felt like magic,

The ending cold and harsh - it feels tragic,

If I could see you again I want you to know,

You still give me goosebumps and make my heart glow,

I would hug you so tight and feel your heartbeat,

I would play with your hair and squeeze your cheeks,

I would kiss you once more if only you let me,

I'm always your baby and I always will be

 

I love you so much. Yes I took you for granted. Yes I was hard work. Yes I caused a lot of drama and didn't put you first. It's taken losing you to truly appreciate you. You were my best friend, my rock, my lover and my confidante.

I will learn. I will grow. I will be the man you fell in love with - this heartbreak will not be for nothing. If you come back I will welcome you with open arms but I will not chase you, I respect your decision.

 

xxx

[Satu]

Limerance.

 

 

1. Experiencing intrusive, interruptive, obsessive thinking about the supposed loved one mixed with, but not limited to, romantic and passionate desire interfering with practical living, clear appropriate thinking and functioning.

 

2. Having acute longing for another’s reciprocal feelings of desire and focus of attention to the point of disrupting sleep and effecting appetite.

 

3. Having a strong emotional dependency on another’s reciprocating positive regard, sexual desire and approval with frequent over-interpretation and mis-interpretation of another’s perceived relationship related words and actions, and severe feelings of rejection and agitation when experiencing anything undesired occurring in the relationship.

 

4. The inability to be strongly interested in, attracted to, or love-involved with anyone but the person one is limerently focused on resulting in neglectful treatment of children, family, friends and sometimes self.

 

5. Unreasonably strong fear of rejection, sometimes at a nearly incapacitating level in the early stage of a limerent attachment, sometimes accompanied with uncharacteristic shyness, awkwardness and fear of doing something which will ruin the developing limerent relationship.

 

6. Anxiety about losing another briefly, relieved with intense fantasy of romantic and sexual union with that person.

 

7. Intensification of romantic connecting desires and efforts when meeting adversity or opposition to the relationship.

 

8. Actively over-interpreting another’s perceived positive responses and characteristics with strong down-playing of that same person’s more ordinary and negative actions, traits, characteristics, words, etc.

 

9. Physical pain in the centre of the chest, shallow breathing and physical nervousness with a sense of dread when any small, medium or large insecurity or uncertainty about the relationship occurs.

 

10. When small, positive input from the person one is limerent about occurs an over-reaction of ebullience, sense of buoyant ‘walking on air’ and exhilaration results during the early stages of the relationship.

 

11. A general lessening of acting responsibly or fairly to others, decreased carrying out of obligations, duties, etc. and a decrease of attending to goal achievement with a distinct decrease in functioning with necessary awareness of others beside the person of limerent focus.

 

12. A tendency to interpret the supposed loved one’s negative actions as somehow positive or give them excuses, acceptance and even high approval, and an avoidance or denial of perceiving their destructive and dysfunctional actions.

 

13. High, unrealistic adoration at first, later fading and disappearing.

 

14. Intensive pleasure when together, and intensive anxiety when separated or when the supposed loved one is around possible competitors, later fading to indifference and even annoyance.

 

15 . ‘Tunnel vision’ focusing on the supposed loved one and little else, plus blindness to all else of importance, later turning into a blindness to the supposed loved one’s developmental growth, changes and new ways of being themselves.

 

Source.

[Avante91]

Limerance.

 

 

1. Experiencing intrusive, interruptive, obsessive thinking about the supposed loved one mixed with, but not limited to, romantic and passionate desire interfering with practical living, clear appropriate thinking and functioning.

 

2. Having acute longing for another’s reciprocal feelings of desire and focus of attention to the point of disrupting sleep and effecting appetite.

 

3. Having a strong emotional dependency on another’s reciprocating positive regard, sexual desire and approval with frequent over-interpretation and mis-interpretation of another’s perceived relationship related words and actions, and severe feelings of rejection and agitation when experiencing anything undesired occurring in the relationship.

 

4. The inability to be strongly interested in, attracted to, or love-involved with anyone but the person one is limerently focused on resulting in neglectful treatment of children, family, friends and sometimes self.

 

5. Unreasonably strong fear of rejection, sometimes at a nearly incapacitating level in the early stage of a limerent attachment, sometimes accompanied with uncharacteristic shyness, awkwardness and fear of doing something which will ruin the developing limerent relationship.

 

6. Anxiety about losing another briefly, relieved with intense fantasy of romantic and sexual union with that person.

 

7. Intensification of romantic connecting desires and efforts when meeting adversity or opposition to the relationship.

 

8. Actively over-interpreting another’s perceived positive responses and characteristics with strong down-playing of that same person’s more ordinary and negative actions, traits, characteristics, words, etc.

 

9. Physical pain in the centre of the chest, shallow breathing and physical nervousness with a sense of dread when any small, medium or large insecurity or uncertainty about the relationship occurs.

 

10. When small, positive input from the person one is limerent about occurs an over-reaction of ebullience, sense of buoyant ‘walking on air’ and exhilaration results during the early stages of the relationship.

 

11. A general lessening of acting responsibly or fairly to others, decreased carrying out of obligations, duties, etc. and a decrease of attending to goal achievement with a distinct decrease in functioning with necessary awareness of others beside the person of limerent focus.

 

12. A tendency to interpret the supposed loved one’s negative actions as somehow positive or give them excuses, acceptance and even high approval, and an avoidance or denial of perceiving their destructive and dysfunctional actions.

 

13. High, unrealistic adoration at first, later fading and disappearing.

 

14. Intensive pleasure when together, and intensive anxiety when separated or when the supposed loved one is around possible competitors, later fading to indifference and even annoyance.

 

15 . ‘Tunnel vision’ focusing on the supposed loved one and little else, plus blindness to all else of importance, later turning into a blindness to the supposed loved one’s developmental growth, changes and new ways of being themselves.

 

Source.

 

All 15! Satu it's like you know me.. I will get there one day

[Satu]

All 15! Satu it's like you know me.. I will get there one day

 

If you want to get there you definitely will, but you have to accept the fact the subject of your poem is a perfectly ordinary and unremarkable person.

 

Accept that, and you're on the right path.

[Avante91]

If you want to get there you definitely will, but you have to accept the fact the subject of your poem is a perfectly ordinary and unremarkable person.

 

Accept that, and you're on the right path.

 

I'm sorry I wasn't trying to elevate her to a goddess etc.. I'm in therapy for depression and anxiety. One of my cognitive behaviour therapy processes is to keep a journal of my thoughts and feelings.. I guess sometimes I get too creative or romantic.

 

I will try keep it to my thoughts and feelings not poems.

 

I'm really trying

[Satu]

I'm sorry I wasn't trying to elevate her to a goddess etc.. I'm in therapy for depression and anxiety. One of my cognitive behaviour therapy processes is to keep a journal of my thoughts and feelings.. I guess sometimes I get too creative or romantic.

 

I will try keep it to my thoughts and feelings not poems.

 

I'm really trying

 

I'm not criticising you - I've been where you are.

 

All your feelings are valid and deserving of expression.

 

So are mine

 

You do whatever you need to do to find your peace and love inside - maybe a love poem to yourself...

 

You are a person of a tender and loving nature, and that is a very good thing.

 

For that, you have my deep respect.

[OneConfuzedGuy]

That was a beautiful poem. Made me shed a tear no joke. Very heartfelt.

[Nolan 93]

wow that was great!!!! Wish I sent that to my ex lol

[Ieris]

@Avante91 - I love your poem, it brought back some memories - bittersweet.

Thanks for sharing x

[Avante91]

Thanks for your kind words I've always been better at writing down my feelings than expressing them in person. It's a shame she will never get to read it.

There will be more x

[Avante91]

My heart feels heavy now does it even beat,

My eyes barely close now I cannot sleep,

My chest feels tight it's hard to breathe,

My stomach hurts more than you would believe.

 

I cannot eat because I have no hunger,

I cannot concentrate I sit and wonder,

I cannot cry I cried all my tears,

I cannot run anymore I'm facing my fears.

 

We had something rare it was special and true,

I'm a better person thanks to you,

We kissed and we hugged my heart felt full,

But now you're cold and ignorant it feels null.

 

If you ever truly loved me then why act like this,

This is not how you treat your best friend you miss,

Three years is a long time to give to each other,

You were my best friend, rock, my girlfriend and lover.

 

We talked of marriage and your diamond ring,

Of a house and a future and what it would bring,

Of children of pets and both being together,

I guess you changed your mind I thought you said forever.

 

You left me alone you said you never would,

But nothing lasts forever I wish this could,

You told me you loved me and made me believe,

But it's like we've died now so let me grieve.

 

I have no use for a phone now nobody to text,

I'm trying to tell myself you are now just an ex,

When I least expect it you always turn up,

I start to heal and you just interrupt.

I don't understand you, you told me to move on,

So why stand in my kitchen talking to my mom,

Why come to my pub to make me feel sad,

Are you feeling guilty do you even feel bad.

If you're having second thoughts then please tell me,

So that we can talk and work it out and see what might be.

If you're over me then please dissapear,

It really breaks my heart each time you are near.

 

I can't give up on you, not just yet,

Because you are the most beautiful person I've ever met

 

X

[DrReplyInRhymes]

I really like your poems, they scream with emotion,

It's very evident the way you felt about your devotion,

It certainly helps heal some of the wounds we've received,

Even in the aftermath of a great relationship as we perceived.

 

If I could just make a small suggestion or note,

It would be to change the subject of the poems you devote,

Re-hashing your strong emotions, especially in this thought-provoking way,

Keeps you hurt for longer than you'd really want to stay!

 

Write about how awesome you are, and what you can bring to the table,

Write about the feeling of love, how it makes you fly and be able,

Write about the good things you did, and the priceless lessons you learned,

Then write about moving on, and don't wait for her return.

[Avante91]

Your poem made me smile and I haven't done so in a while,

1% of my heart still longing for reconcile,

 

But I know you are right I must move on,

Be physically, mentally and emotionally strong,

 

I've learnt it's okay to love someone and let them be free,

Sometimes some things just aren't meant to be,

 

I do still think of her with great adoration,

Call me old fashioned for believing in devotion,

 

If we never lost then we would never appreciate,

The beauty of love - how your feelings elate,

 

She's not coming back each day more evident,

In her heart no more am I a resident.

 

I will love again I know that is true,

Your words inspire me and I sincerey thank you.

[dyna85]

Okay, I'm officially in love with this thread.

[Avante91]

Okay, I'm officially in love with this thread.

 

 

If I can make one person smile,

It's all worthwhile,

[welshbambi]

I love this thread too!!!!

 

My Loveshack compadres

You truly inspire

A need to self-love

And find new desires

 

No matter the issue

The question or woe

Each of you helps me

When I'm feeling low

 

So thank you, compadres

I'm doing just fine

With your kind words of wisdom

And Old Father Time

 

BIG LOVE Y'ALL!!

[Avante91]

My friends..

 

I've learnt that when you love them more than yourself it will not last,

Make peace with your present - let go of your past.

 

You cannot change it so why cause yourself pain,

The doubt, the blame, what ifs will drive you insane.

 

They made a choice one we should respect,

To have a life without us a form of neglect.

 

Let them have their way and disappear,

I'm sure they will realise when they start to fear.

 

Have we moved on do we even care,

You ended it with me so how is that fair.

 

I gave you a piece of my heart and I said it's forever,

So hold onto it tight and never say never.

 

Amor vincit omnia my friends love conquers all. Stay strong, crying isn't weak, hurting isn't weak, missing them is okay. But don't chase them stay strong let them realise by themselves and hopefully by then we have healed x

[todreaminblue]

beautiful poems poster peoples...love your passion avante......deb

[Avante91]

beautiful poems poster peoples...love your passion avante......deb

 

Thank you so much!

[welshbambi]

Avante I love how much your poems have already changed to be more positive just in the course of this thread.

 

I would love to see a lovely poem about you next please

[sober and dry]

Today I rediscovered this one from placebo, sorry for the hijack

 

Here comes another fall from grace

I'm always falling on my face

This attitude that I embrace

For the love

I'm trying to replace

I try to kill the song

'Cause the melody's all wrong

And there's a fever coming on

It's hard to reconcile

What I've become

With a wounded child

Hiding deep inside

 

Breath underwater

I'm coming up for air

I wanna see another dawn

Coming up for the air

Sick of the slaughter

I'm coming up for air

'Cause I've been floating here too long

 

Take my ego for a ride

'Cause there's nobody by my side

It's getting hard to justify

And it won't be long 'till I collide

My weakness is laid bare

As people stop and stare

But it's the last time I swear

It's hard to reconcile

What I've become

With a wounded child

Hiding deep inside

[OneConfuzedGuy]

I guess I will have to join in on this poem thread

though its hard to think straight im feeling dead

memories of the past running through my mind

hoping they pass soon, dont want to run out of time

 

You never know what you got til its gone they say

but i knew and I still remember that day

when you said it would be forever I thought it was true

but now I see clearly, you didnt feel the same way I did about you

 

Do you even exist?, I don't really feel it

But I feel the heartbreak pain that crushed my spirit

Hard to wake up in the mornings because I fear it

Go on another day lost, the future i cant see it

 

Were we even real? What about all the things we said?

Nights on a summer evening, laughing and jokes in bed

I guess you gave up, wanted to let me go

and I feel like the real reason ill never know.

[Avante91]

My friends.

 

Your words heal me, it's nice to know I'm not alone in heartbreak or recovery.

Please stay strong we will all get there one day, don't count just let your heart heal.

 

For anyone who is interested I'm working on a poem about me I have 6 hours spare at work in between meetings so will post it when satisfied Welsh but be warned it will be long!

 

Without this forum I would not be here x

[welshbambi]

I look forward to reading it Avante!

[Avante91]

I look forward to reading it Avante!

 

Welsh,

I spent all day writing about myself, rushing to the toilets to cry and ripping up the papers. I don't know what it is but I struggle writing about myself?

I want to try again because I hate failure and I'm not a quitter!