proactivedreamer Posted January 1, 2015 Posted January 1, 2015 He had to pick up his things, or maybe that is what I told myself. I feel like somewhere deep down inside I was hoping he would say or do something to save us from this ending. No, whatever I imagined happening did not come true. He was so casual, didn't seem sad. He asked me if this would be the last time he saw me. I shrugged. I was so angry with him for seeming like non of this phased him. He seemed aloof. That hurt so bad. I know he thinks that I am in control, but that is not the case nor the reason for our breakup. The circumstances and the lack of action on his end brought us here. I could not stand the idea of wasting another year waiting for progress and change to occur in our relationship and within him. I know I shouldn't question myself, but I feel like I can't help it. He didn't say much of anything. He just left like I was nothing. I am crying, and I can't for the clock to strike 12. I can't wait to put this behind me.
dyna85 Posted January 1, 2015 Posted January 1, 2015 If it's any consolation, I know the feeling quite well. I, too, experienced the feeling of him being aloof and in my situation, he was apathetic toward me and it hurt me very deeply. I would just recommend you allow yourself to cry as much as you feel the need, or do whatever helps you cope with those emotions, be it spending time on this site perusing the boards, exercising, listening to music, reading, writing, etc. Anything to 'pass the time.' I know it's hard. Know that you did mean something though, even if it feels like otherwise. People don't just forget, no matter how much of a front they put up to try to intentionally or unintentionally prove otherwise. 1
welshbambi Posted January 2, 2015 Posted January 2, 2015 Well whatever else at least you saved face. I completely understand where you are - I am too. I think many of us are. It doesn't change the fact we didn't get what we wanted but I have to believe that it happens to free us up for something better. It may not happen now, it may not happen in the next year, but it will happen. 1
Satu Posted January 2, 2015 Posted January 2, 2015 He probably seemed so aloof because he'd shut down emotionally, as a way of coping. He'll feel the impact at some point, even if he tries to dodge it. In the meantime, treat yourself with exquisite tenderness, and surrender to the healing process. Let yourself fall into your own arms. 2
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