derrickktran Posted December 31, 2014 Posted December 31, 2014 Me(m)(21) and my ex (f)(23) started dating in Highschool. I was about 16, she was 18. We've been together for about 5 years, two years ON and OFF. Let me start off by i cheated first, yes i know it was a mistake. All she wanted to do was be with me. I was immature, and yes i know i made a huge mistake. So i broke up with her and she went around found someone else. And my rebound then cheated on me, then i realized what a huge mistake i made. ANYWAYYYYY so we've been on and off. And i can tell you ive matured. So lets get to this story. One day she say she needed space, so i came by to drop off some lunch/dinner and flowers. She told me she was at home laying in bed come to realize that she wasn't home when i got there. So we stopped talking there. Fast forward a few months later, we get back together. I treat her like Gold, everything i got. Faithful not smothering her, being mature about everything. Happy life Happy wife right? So okay around her birthday? Dec 8, Her sister calls me at 5AM looking for her. So i dont hear from her until the next day, and she says she was at home, (i didn't tell her that her sister called me) Her excuse was she went "cruising." Come on... whos going to believe that bull**** of a lie. I'm 100% sure she was out with some other guy. ANYWAY enough of this info. So im just living life, this time im like okay, im going to move on. And it seems that the ONE time i am done with her ... I'm thinking she'll never contact me agian after we've been through so much. She contacts me christmas week and asks if we could hang out, and that she has presents for me. I've told her that i cant be friends with her, because of our history, but she still texts me everyday.. I ignore it, but if she texts a few times, i answer. But when i answer she doesn't text back. I know that she's ****ing playing these minds games. I just want you guys help on how to let go. I've read books, i've read every forum on here including REDDITs. I've read "getting past your breakup - Susan J Elliot. I am very much in love with her still, and i still believe she was the one i truly loved. THere's so much backstory to this, i'd be happy to inform you guys in on. I just love the feedback from this community, and before i go to bed evreynight , instead of thinking of her, i read the uplifting stories on here, it gives me hope that i'll get through it. This is my first , post sorry, i usually blog, and i dont know if i'm doing this right..
SoThatHappened Posted December 31, 2014 Posted December 31, 2014 My high school relationship sounds somewhat similar, but it didn't end because of cheating. However, we were on and off for years and years. We always found a way to get back to each other. My advice to you: Move on. Live life. Try to stay away from each other for a long time (or at least give yourselves time to grow up and mature a little more). This is probably the 4th chapter of your 10-chapter soap opera with her if you continue doing what you're doing (breaking up and getting back together in months and never really growing up separately). 1
Author derrickktran Posted December 31, 2014 Author Posted December 31, 2014 We've had breaks about 6 months apart, i wish i could tell you how much ive matured.. But it's like if she thinks we arent evre going to get back together, why is she contacting me. Ive read on here something aobut her checking to see "if she still had that leash on me." It's hard for me to read her text and not respond to them, but ive bene getting better at them. I use to have trouble sleeping at night. I don't know what it is, its obviously me whos the dumbass and sticks around all the time. It's like i know all these answers, becuase ive been through them so many times. I have to move on, i have to live life etc.. Some reason we always end up back together, and i don't want it anymore but i cant help but fight against it.
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