I'm losing it.

[Black Cement]

I'm going crazy. The woman I love is getting married, & its not to me. I dream about her often. The other night it I dreamed I was waiting for an elevator, and when the doors opened she came out in a wedding dress, I woke up bawling my eyes out.

 

It's been a while since we broke up, I've been in several relationships, but I'm still in love with her. I keep replaying all the mistakes I did in our relationship, and post break-up. I knew she truly loved me, & wanted to reconcile in the future but I forced things, hurt her intentionally & now its too late.

 

I wish I could get professional help, but I can't afford that. I don't know what to do. Please help.

[HurtGator]

I'm going crazy. The woman I love is getting married, & its not to me. I dream about her often. The other night it I dreamed I was waiting for an elevator, and when the doors opened she came out in a wedding dress, I woke up bawling my eyes out.

 

It's been a while since we broke up, I've been in several relationships, but I'm still in love with her. I keep replaying all the mistakes I did in our relationship, and post break-up. I knew she truly loved me, & wanted to reconcile in the future but I forced things, hurt her intentionally & now its too late.

 

I wish I could get professional help, but I can't afford that. I don't know what to do. Please help.

 

Not to get you to rehash your relationship problems, bu, what were the worst mistakes you did in the relationship?

[Itspointless]

I'm going crazy. The woman I love is getting married, & its not to me. I dream about her often. The other night it I dreamed I was waiting for an elevator, and when the doors opened she came out in a wedding dress, I woke up bawling my eyes out.

 

It's been a while since we broke up, I've been in several relationships, but I'm still in love with her. I keep replaying all the mistakes I did in our relationship, and post break-up. I knew she truly loved me, & wanted to reconcile in the future but I forced things, hurt her intentionally & now its too late.

 

I wish I could get professional help, but I can't afford that. I don't know what to do. Please help.

Is this the one who broke up with you because of your jealousy issues? I guess this is the the one for you who got away.

 

Some things in our lives need to happen - not in a script-like sense as it was meant to be, but - to make us realize how we are in the world; what made us into the human beings we are today. Your parents made it hard for you to trust woman and to open up about how you feel. It are unconscious patterns you perform when you get stressed or feel low.

 

Sometimes when we truly love people we need to let them go and live their own lives. That probably is one of the hardest things we can do for another person. There are other things too, so I wont say it is the hardest.

 

Perhaps you should wish her a beautiful day and a great future with him. Acknowledge for yourself what you have shared with her and cherish that. Some people are just in our lives for a short time. Use the time you had with her to be a better version of you in the future, as those people are for us a valuable mirror: that needs (at least some) work on the things you described before being in a relation again. Do not worry, many people have things they need to work on. For now you need to grief, try to go through your sadness.