annaballerina Posted December 27, 2014 Posted December 27, 2014 I'm not sure why I'm posting here maybe for support or to vent. I ended a three yr relationship one with many highs and lows. It's not what I'd call a healthy relationship for many reasons but we did share a lot. I'm really missing them despite knowing things were deteriorating. I really regret the breakup itself. It's not how I envisioned. I'd hoped it would've been a conversation and civil but I lost it and said something I regret. I'm not like that normally I'd never lose it on someone. I really regret this. It's been an eyeopener tho because it's not how I'd normally react. They brought out the best in me but also the worst. I've been really struggling with it all. It's helped reading other stories but in the end it's still my journey to go thru. I feel they never really loved me. I'm not sure what their motivation was with me and probably never will. I do miss their company but I know that to be expected. I'm mad upset and feel used and duped as well. It's my fault tho I allowed it to happen knowing what was happening. I was avoiding the inevitable. Itstill hurts tho because you still miss the person and the good times. It's like a death but in a lot of ways worse because it's never full closure. I just feel so empty because they weren't just a partner but a friend I thought was a friend or rather desperately wanted to be a friend. My hearts in a million pieces despite knowing it was the right decision. It just hurts so much
EgoJoe Posted December 27, 2014 Posted December 27, 2014 Weren't you married? Perhaps you ought to take this to separation and divorce. Forgive yourself for the emotional parts if you meant well but didn't handle it with grace.
Author annaballerina Posted December 27, 2014 Author Posted December 27, 2014 Thanks good advice. Were all human and I know I've made my share of mistakes in life.
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