break ups, lies, empty promises, abuse, unable to let go..im a doormat.

[lj3]

Hello. To make a long story short, ive been with a woman for 4 years. I have been punched, had my dog put to sleep to make room for a guy now out of prison, I have been told I have more of a chance and its my fault, I was recently told she wants nothing to do with him and we r going on a cruise and blah blah. Honesty is not there. The guy recently got out of prison. Ibhave been losing my mind for years now. I cant and wont let go still. I must be the weakest lowest self respect person on earth to keep belive i and going back. Its obvious she enjoys my pain. I dont eat well when im upset. Im kinda broke and have not much going for me which gives her more control and power. I do crazy things which makes me com close to getting in more trouble like text in a lot or knocking in her door wanting to confront her and him. One minute hes nothing and the next im nothing. Im holding on to nothing or very little. Im just losing my mind. This is my christmas present..seeing her with him. Then she says she wants to be with him..then the next day she says she wants to see if theres anything worth salvaging with him. He took off with a 4000$ truck in the past and left her then ended up in prison for beating his girlfriend. Then she started send in him money. He was the cause of every one of our arguements. Find in letters..not eating...one time I passed out from stress...hit my head on the floor and got a staple in my head. But stupid me...its still not over. Im so hurt and still want more. God please help me and or someone

[NoLeafClover]

Dude u can't deal with stress like this. U need to realize she is not the person you think she is... don't blame her blame yourself for not eating and allowing this get go you to this point. There is one thing to be upset about something like arguments and break up and bills etch etc..there is another thing about drawing the line like when you are being abused, cheated on, going back and being treated like shut etc etc. When you don't understand where the line is and you can't draw your own line to say "F%*** it" , that's when you start to lose your dignity.

 

 

One step at a time you need to pick yourself up and move on.

Do not contact her, do not even talk to her if she calls you or shows up at your door step. If you are broke, bruised , crying, bleeding or W.e she will make it worse. She is not going to help you she doesn't give a f about you she is screwing someone else. Do you want to stay there waiting? You can't be humble in the jungle she is not the only person on earth. You are simply down and are having self esteem issues. You need to give it time and realize you will be fine without her. Let her keep her man from prison..YOU CANT FIX PEOPLE. You need to look after yourself and don't expect anything from her. Its sad but such is life. Only then when you come to terms with that you will start to feel better.

 

 

Everyone here has been there trust me... so don't feel alone.

The best thing you have done is come on here and open up for advise. You will find the truth and best advise on from real people that can relate no bias crap you just want to hear. Consider coming here your firsts step to recovery

[Satu]

Keep visiting here and keep posting - there are a lot of caring people here.

 

To feel better you need to go for Total No Contact. That means no direct contact, no contact through third parties, and no social media.

 

She's emotionally toxic for you, and you need to stop taking the toxin.

[lj3]

Well just weeks ago she promised she would never see him again and even if we didnt work out. I feel all I do is feed her ego. She said how she hired a private investigator told me all these lies. Promised me honesty..and a lot more only to hurt me. I had finally gotten iver her and then she makes me love her again. I realize I allow it by going back its just a worse addiction than drugs to me. I cant kick the habit. Ill never give up. I know I should but I dont. One minute she says she wants to be with him then something else. I think she has done the same ro him. I highly doubt knowing her they will have a perfect fairy tale story. She screwed over the most loyal guy in the world. Im just a nice guy. No contact is important. Ive been crying like crazy the last few days. She promised me the world and then stripped it from me. I know I may sound like a whining high school kid but its just not easy for me and yes iam losing self respect/dignity. And also her respect. Everything I do is for her not myself. She comes before me. Unfortunately I cant break that habit. Every time I get over her she lures me back into loving her again its a game to her and im the toy