Justaguy30 Posted December 14, 2014 Posted December 14, 2014 I am just having a really hard time. Christmas is really bothering me as I miss having a family. I stillids her sometimes but I think more than anything I just lonely. I have been so depressed I am having a hard time getting out of bed and functioning. Just not sure where to turn and things from our relationship are still haunting me. I know at this point its just crazy of me to still be this upset but I still cry sometimes. I have recently told off a lot of people in my life because they just didn't have a place in my life and I am lonely. Just having an awful time.
Arient Posted December 14, 2014 Posted December 14, 2014 Hang in there I know holiday seasons suck since it once again, emphasize on the fact that we're alone now. But like other times, this sure will pass. I'm at 9 months mark too, and still find it so hard with the sudden flush of memories during this time of year. Let's find some ways to distract ourselves? How about friends? Family? I have them all by my side but I'm not sure about your case, but I think they make a great support network. If not, then maybe find a charity group doing things for people on Christmas, it might not help 100% but at least it's better to drag yourself out of the house, interact with new people and doing something meaningful Try to keep your mind distracted and occupied by other things all the time.
Author Justaguy30 Posted December 14, 2014 Author Posted December 14, 2014 Thank you for the advice and to be honest the holidays with her were awful. She was always such a mean bitch. I still to this day wonder why I loved her or miss her. The fact is I do though
Arient Posted December 14, 2014 Posted December 14, 2014 Thank you for the advice and to be honest the holidays with her were awful. She was always such a mean bitch. I still to this day wonder why I loved her or miss her. The fact is I do though Love is a wonderful thing, but it's also a b*tch which it's very hard to be explained We never know why we can still love someone who hurted us so bad or treated us like dirt. I don't think we can ever find an answer to that, but at least, I think we should be proud of our love. It's ours, and it will still be there, just be careful next time to give it to a better person
d0nnivain Posted December 14, 2014 Posted December 14, 2014 Depression is an insidious condition & all the "required" merriment & joy of the holidays make it worse. Who are these other people that you have told off? If you were wrong in lashing out at them, tell them you're sorry. Find something you enjoy doing & focus on that.
Author Justaguy30 Posted December 14, 2014 Author Posted December 14, 2014 The people that I cut out of my life were not people I needed around. I am just stuck. There were some legal issues which I didn't feel were fair and still don't and it is still effecting my life in a negative way. After all the pain and horror she put me through I don't understand why she would continue to hurt me. She is evil. That situation broke me down super low and pretty much ripped my life apart and yet I still pay more and more as if I deserve that.
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