Author angiefly Posted December 12, 2014 Author Posted December 12, 2014 If you want strength to get through and stay committed to NC - then look into the eyes of your three children every time you get the urge to contact him. Do you really want that kind of influence in their lives? You are a woman of high value, purpose, and meaning. You do not deserve to be treated any other way. There is no romantic relationship worth hurting your children over. Have you made contact with a counselor yet? A trained professional could help you look at yourself and answer the question, "why would I allow myself to be treated like this?" I have come to understand my true place in this world by renewing my relationship with Christ. He shows you what real love is and He is present with you now. My thoughts and prayers are with you! Be blessed. I am looking into therapy. You're right about my kids and I do appreciate the support. Thank you!
Author angiefly Posted December 12, 2014 Author Posted December 12, 2014 Another night but I did contact him. I regret it and now I'm moving forward and back to NC. Thankfully I only contacted him to tell him that the rest of his stuff was on his porch and to tell him his SIL was trying to get a hold of him so it didn't do any damage to me... I'm feeling indifferent/numb right now. I'm pushing forward and not looking back. Thanks everyone, for the support!
ConfusedMike Posted December 12, 2014 Posted December 12, 2014 Another night but I did contact him. I regret it and now I'm moving forward and back to NC. Thankfully I only contacted him to tell him that the rest of his stuff was on his porch and to tell him his SIL was trying to get a hold of him so it didn't do any damage to me... I'm feeling indifferent/numb right now. I'm pushing forward and not looking back. Thanks everyone, for the support! There's no shame in breaking NC...I've done it so many times haha. Don't beat yourself over it, but learn from it. We're all here and rooting for you.
ConfusedMike Posted December 12, 2014 Posted December 12, 2014 Thank you Mike! You're right... besides if I have to justify or rationalize it then it's probably not a good idea anyway. Man, thanks everybody for all this support... It really does mean so much to me!!! I'm sticking to NC! BTW, Mike, good for you for NOT sending the roses. You deserve better too It was close! If their computers weren't down due to the storm, I would have placed the order so it was an act of God haha. Must be a sign. We'll get through this! Gotta fight the good fight. 1
Author angiefly Posted December 12, 2014 Author Posted December 12, 2014 Well I didn't sleep much and I'm having anxiety. This sucks so bad.
ConfusedMike Posted December 12, 2014 Posted December 12, 2014 Well I didn't sleep much and I'm having anxiety. This sucks so bad. It will be like that for a while. I haven't had a full nights sleep in weeks and I often have vivid dreams about her. It's unfortunately part of the process. Everything that you're feeling is normal. Stay strong. 1
Author angiefly Posted December 12, 2014 Author Posted December 12, 2014 Well he contacted me today to find out why I broke it off with him so I told him why and I feel better now that it's over. I will miss him I'm sure, but he wasn't right for me (or to me) so I had to end it. Back to focusing on me and bettering myself. I am excited for what the future holds. I was already dealing with grief/pain (and processing it all) during the last couple months of our relationship so I'm hoping maybe that will make this process easier. Fingers crossed.
ConfusedMike Posted December 13, 2014 Posted December 13, 2014 Well he contacted me today to find out why I broke it off with him so I told him why and I feel better now that it's over. I will miss him I'm sure, but he wasn't right for me (or to me) so I had to end it. Back to focusing on me and bettering myself. I am excited for what the future holds. I was already dealing with grief/pain (and processing it all) during the last couple months of our relationship so I'm hoping maybe that will make this process easier. Fingers crossed. Good for you! You stuck to your guns and remained strong. I hope he gave you some of the answers you sought and it helps accelerate your healing. It's great to hear some optimism in your post and perhaps the dark clouds are clearing up just a little bit. Small victories are so meaningful at this point.
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