Will you read my story

[seankits93]

So it started out I met her on fb right after I prayed to meet someone right for me. She was on the top friends on chat when I opened my eyes. We started talking and hit it off. I went to her work and stayed her whole shift and hugged the first day in the rain. After we hung out a lot . We went hiking, watched movies and played video games while cuddling on the couch. I told her I liked her and got friend zoned but I never gave up.

 

We kept hanging out and cuddling more. One day we started talking about sexual stuff at the time I thought we were joking. The next day she came over again but this time we decided to watch the movie on my bed. During it she started taking her clothes off. I'm a very nice guy and Christian and she knew this so sex is special to me. So we did everything but the p in the v. She always said she was fine with the fact that I wanted to wait longer to go all the way. After we did stuff I said we pretty much had to be in a relationship or we can't do that anymore. A week of convincing her went by and on the Friday she said yes and slept over my house. Sorry about getting graphic but I have to because it's a huge part of this story.

 

It got to the point where we would do everything together and she would sleep over like everyday. We would always have deep talks with each other that ended with me having happy tears. We even said that we loved each other everyday . I told her a lot about me including my childhood when my dad was mean and I want to grow up to be the opposite and how I have OCD that makes me do things in a certain way in a certain number of times and she even saw me doing this. She promised that she'll never judge me for it. She would say I was the nicest guy ever all the time. I would always buy her presents and even stay at her work the whole time to give her company. I even went to her classes with her and gave her confidence to go to an exam she woke up late for. Now onto the break up.

 

She came over again we went to the post office came back did sexual things. After she went on my fb because I said it sucks and there's hoes on there so i dont like going on it. she got mad at me because of that I said idk who they are and started erasing them. She said I don't have to and that she's sorry. I said they were also there to get movie views because she knew I make movies and we even watched them together. After we went to get ice cream. We came back and went in the hot tub. After did more sexual things. This part makes no sense to everyone and gets graphic.

 

As soon as we're done like in seconds she randomly grabs my phone and finds the app hot or not in the back of my phone. I told her I forgot it was there because my OCD would give me anxiety when I went on those pages. By it was a virus for meet me she clicked on it and it went to the internet and said download. So I told her see its a virus and hot or not is nothing I know couples that have it to laugh at it together. She instantly puts her clothes on says were done and runs outside. It's midnight on Friday the 13 and pouring rain. She starts driving I'm chasing after her in my boxers and freezing she pulls over and says she might call later.

 

She did said she forgave me didn't say she loved me and hung up. The next day said I was a piece of ****, an ******* and a disgusted she let me touch her. When I was never mean and just kept saying I didn't do anything and I love her. The next day I bought her roses, a card and a hundred dollar necklace. I went to her work with it and she said get leave. I went home cried picked up my friend Justin and we cried together. She texted so crazily that day I had to make my friend use my phone when I told him what to say. She got mad when he said how am I cheating on you if we never had sex yet? She got mad and said why the question mark because apparently I don't use those. I texted back and said you know what I mean the p in the v.

 

It got so bad that day it ended with me saying I should kill myself for her because her happiness is the only thing I care about so if I'm making her sad than that's how it could stop she even got mad at that so I said I'm sorry for saying it right after. The next day I went back to her work she actually talked to me I cried my eyes out and she said she forgave me and loved me again. She even accepted the gifts. That night we had a phone call and said we loved each other again. The only bad part of the phone call is I said I was a little scared to watch her pets when she went on vacation so she doesn't just use me for that. She said she won't and I said I trusted her and that I will watch them. The next day at work she texted me and said why did my sister unfriend her on fb I said idk I can talk to her she just saw me crying.

 

Then she ignored me for the next week and started erasing pics of us on fb. She texted my sister back and not me then My sister said just go to her house. I did and she broke up with me said get out and her parents threatened to call the cops and shoot me because apparently I threatened her I said I didn't do anything I love her and left. The next 2 weeks went by I tried to get her back with a text. She refriended me on fb. Then she saw I went to the bar with a friend he posted getting my boy back in the game not me. And that I accepted like 3 girls on fb. She posted a status saying I was an *******. I texted her and said she can even text my friend I just kept him company at a bar and added friends cause he told me to.

 

She said she was gonna drop off my stuff the next weekend and that she'll call the cops if I went to her house or work. I didn't text back because everyone told me not to. She admit she got guys numbers the week she ignored me and went to college. Then the day when she dropped off my stuff my family said I should leave my house so I don't see her because if I did that day it would be worse. So my whole family left she texted me and said she'll throw my things everywhere if I wasn't home. My family said don't text back because if she did anything damaging we can call the cops on her. I came home and she dropped of everything I ever gave her including love notes from day one. I texted her sorry again and we became friends for the next week. I asked her if she wants to go on a bike ride let me know and she said vice versa. Then later in the week she kept texting me and saying she was hanging out with a lot of guys. So I asked about that bike ride and she said she didn't think that will happen anytime soon so I sent another big text trying to get her back again.

 

She ignored me for another week then said don't text her. Then she started viewing all my snapchat stories and we started posting them as if talking to each other. She said meet her on the bike path in a story as a response to mine. So I went on there with my bike but when I got close to her I saw she was with her mom and turned away from me when I got close so I just rode past them. I got home texted her hi. She sent back don't text me. Then I sent a big one saying I'm always there for her. 2 months after the break up now her bday came up I texted her happy bday with a pic of a ruby necklace I was going to give her. She said thanks and she felt bad I still had it. And we texted nicely the whole day. The day after at 3am I texted her a nice good morning so she would see it when she woke up. But she was still awake and texted back that she was tired of me making her feel deevaluated just like the whole time we went out.

 

And that I should just take the porn dating apps and all the girls I cheated on her with and leave because she saw on snapchat that she was second friend now. I flipped out and sent a huge text saying I never did anything and she destroyed me. I said that girl on snapchat was only 1st friend because she just said what's up and morgan didn't talk to me anymore. and i didnt even talk back to her.(I was third on hers btw) I also said I should prob block her number because were just going to go back and forth. She sent back **** you I'm blocking you first. She did. I was never able to block her. A week later I used my friend Justin's phone to say sorry for that. We got no reply. In the beginning weeks of November I downloaded meetme which was a site that she thought I had before to try and move on. But I couldn't and even worse I found her on there. It said she only had it for about 2 weeks after she saw me on it she blocked me. I used a friends account to try and find her after and she erased it now.

 

Now what I'm about to type is a letter that I either want to hand write or send by iMessage with my new iPad. I would like people's opinions what they think I should send to try and get her back and when to send it because I still love her. Also if anybody knows the law I would also like you to tell me if its anything she can get a restraining or no contact order for.

 

Dear *****

Hi this is **** I just wanted to say I hope your having fun at school . I just flew over 18 mile creek recently and it reminded me of the time we went together. It's very beautiful in the spring with all the different colored leaves. The lilacs are amazing. That was really fun going hiking there with you. I know this message doesn't fix what's broken between us, and maybe it never will be. But I want you to know that I care deeply about you, and I always will. That part has never changed. The part that's changed is that I realize how stupid I was to let you go. I know I said I won't send you anymore but this is the one time I'm going against my word because love is to strong of a force to just let this sit inside of me. Im sorry if I ever got annoying, begged to much or sounded mean. Also that I said I was going to block you.

 

I couldnt bring myself to do it and I would never want to thats why im still sending messages now. I said it in the heat of the moment to force myself to let things cool down. I'm extremely sorry the apps were there and would love to have the chance to make up for what happened. The months before we met my ocd was stopping me from earasing the apps because I'll get anxiety whenever I scrolled through those pages on my phone . Also how my OCD worked was when I thought life was perfect I would have to do everything in a certain way so nothing would change. Since the breakup I have went to counseling for this and I truthfully don't do it that much at all anymore. I got hot or not a year ago because after being single for 20 years I tried meeting people. I found out those apps suck for meeting people and stopped using them a year ago. The others were viruses that reappear every time I turn my phone on and off that's why when you clicked on it the internet came up instead and it said download now.

 

I forgot they were there especially after I met you because you are the only thing I can think about .It doesn't make sense if I did anything behind your back because it goes against everything I said or did, and if i did I wouldnt have tried to get you to come back especially that im still trying to talk to you now even if we can at least be friends at some point would make me extremely happy. Also there was no reason to because your the only one I want to be with. I love you. Months after when we saw each other on meetme I downloaded it that night to see you and maybe send this on there because a friend of mine said that he saw you on it. I just didn't send this earlier because I didn't want to bother you and I actually did start typing this on the site when you blocked me so I thought it would be to soon.

 

I didn't look at porn since before we even started going out ,when we started hanging out more and getting closer. I can only think of you when I get horny because your the only one that did anything sexual with me and the only girlfriend I had so far and most of all because I love you. We had sex so much I wouldn't want to look at it so I never did. Im sorry that I ever said you didn't give me anything you didnt have to, just you being there and your love is the best gift of all, like I said the whole time and you did buy things like meals and gas. I'm sorry I listened to people about what to do and let them add people on my Facebook (whether it was to make you jealous or whatever they were trying to make me do, I just tried everything so you would come back ) If I talked to anybody else it was just as friends the conversations were they would ask "hows it going" then I would say "terrible I just got broken up with by the girl who I think is the one for me I hope I can be with her again" then they would say "sorry to hear that" and thats as far as it would go.

 

People tell me to move on but I dont care what they are telling me and I realize now that I should have never listened to a word they said. Love is between us and only us. I just did that stuff because you are my first girlfriend and I love you with all my heart so when we broke up I thought I wasnt good enough and I was very scared that i was losing the one for me, so I tried everything anybody told me to do to try to help me get back together with you. I now learned from my mistakes and learned to always listen to my heart. I still have the pics we took together because they remind me of the happiest days of my life so far . I can go back into my memories and remember what once was and it brings a smile to my face knowing that you were once with me, just like the days I still dream of every night. I go to UB now but I will drop everything im doing and I will fly and drive to you even just to say hi. I miss and love everything about you. From every cell to every curve, freckle, your beautiful green eyes and the most amazing flawless smile I have ever seen.

 

Especially your personality and whats on the inside and how your different from every other girl . Also how we both think that being different is an awesome thing. Also the fact that you dont talk about your animals as pets but as friends and family and how you love nature and admire the beauty of it. And going hiking and on walks with you to explore, exercise and be part of nature. I love texting you and our long phone calls we have every day. How you actually try at school and care about your grades . Also studying, going to school with you, how you want to be a doctor and being able to give you confidence to do better and try things in life like going to your exam that you woke up late for. I love giving you gifts alot like when you were at work to help you have a better day and especially giving them to you on special occasions like easter, all the other holidays and our anniversaries. Also watching movies, tv and playing video games with you and cuddling like no tomorrow.

 

If I could ever hold you again ill hold you so good ill never want to let go of my miracle. I love getting ice cream and frozen yogurt with you and sharing our flavors. Also going out to eat with you and sitting our way next to each other so I could show the world how much I love you and hold and kiss you the whole time. I love sex with you everywhere we did it which is the closest a person can ever get with someone it was the best times of my life so far. Also our car rides and going on random adventures yelling out my window that I love you for the world to hear, hot tub times , looking at the stars and singing with you. I love our sleep overs and being able to go to sleep and wake up being the happiest person alive when im holding you . I nonstopped smiled at all times sleeping with you and love songs played in my head. All of those things and infinite more are ways that I love you and how you are my dreams come true. I'm willing to start over new and do whatever it takes. With you all the troubles of the world go away, and I'm extremely sorry for everything I ever did to make you sad or mad. Thank you for being different from every other girl and actually giving me a chance.

 

You showed me that love still exists. Thank you for being there for me. You are my prayers answered and everything I ever said was true especially how we met and that I never did anything behind your back and the most important of them all, that I'll always be there for you and that I love you. I may not be perfect and I may not be good at relationships because you were my first one but I do know one thing though and that is I love you with all my heart ♡♡♡♡

 

This first link is the movie Constant Angel . A film I told you about that was meant to help the world. It was a reason that I added so many people on Facebook but never talked to them. So I would just share this film and people might choose to watch it on there own to someday hopefully show the world that there is still hope and good in it and that hopefully things will get better.

Edited December 8, 2014 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
added much needed paragrpahs but you might think about a ;TLDR paragraph in the beginning

[Chemist]

no, I will not read your story. You need to write smaller paragraphs! Use the enter key and split that sucka up. To daunting to read as is.

[Danda]

So it started out I met her on fb right after I prayed to meet someone right for me. She was on the top friends on chat when I opened my eyes. We started talking and hit it off. I went to her work and stayed her whole shift and hugged the first day in the rain.

 

After we hung out a lot . We went hiking, watched movies and played video games while cuddling on the couch. I told her I liked her and got friend zoned but I never gave up. We kept hanging out and cuddling more.

 

One day we started talking about sexual stuff at the time I thought we were joking. The next day she came over again but this time we decided to watch the movie on my bed. During it she started taking her clothes off. I'm a very nice guy and Christian and she knew this so sex is special to me. So we did everything but the p in the v. She always said she was fine with the fact that I wanted to wait longer to go all the way.

 

After we did stuff I said we pretty much had to be in a relationship or we can't do that anymore. A week of convincing her went by and on the Friday she said yes and slept over my house. Sorry about getting graphic but I have to because it's a huge part of this story.

 

It got to the point where we would do everything together and she would sleep over like everyday. We would always have deep talks with each other that ended with me having happy tears. We even said that we loved each other everyday . I told her a lot about me including my childhood when my dad was mean and I want to grow up to be the opposite and how I have OCD that makes me do things in a certain way in a certain number of times and she even saw me doing this. She promised that she'll never judge me for it.

 

She would say I was the nicest guy ever all the time. I would always buy her presents and even stay at her work the whole time to give her company. I even went to her classes with her and gave her confidence to go to an exam she woke up late for.

 

Now onto the break up.

 

She came over again we went to the post office came back did sexual things. After she went on my fb because I said it sucks and there's hoes on there so i dont like going on it. she got mad at me because of that I said idk who they are and started erasing them. She said I don't have to and that she's sorry. I said they were also there to get movie views because she knew I make movies and we even watched them together.

 

After we went to get ice cream. We came back and went in the hot tub. After did more sexual things. This part makes no sense to everyone and gets graphic.

 

As soon as we're done like in seconds she randomly grabs my phone and finds the app hot or not in the back of my phone. I told her I forgot it was there because my OCD would give me anxiety when I went on those pages. By it was a virus for meet me she clicked on it and it went to the internet and said download. So I told her see its a virus and hot or not is nothing I know couples that have it to laugh at it together.

 

She instantly puts her clothes on says were done and runs outside. It's midnight on Friday the 13 and pouring rain. She starts driving I'm chasing after her in my boxers and freezing she pulls over and says she might call later. She did said she forgave me didn't say she loved me and hung up. The next day said I was a piece of ****, an ******* and a disgusted she let me touch her. When I was never mean and just kept saying I didn't do anything and I love her.

 

The next day I bought her roses, a card and a hundred dollar necklace. I went to her work with it and she said get leave. I went home cried picked up my friend Justin and we cried together.

 

She texted so crazily that day I had to make my friend use my phone when I told him what to say. She got mad when he said how am I cheating on you if we never had sex yet? She got mad and said why the question mark because apparently I don't use those. I texted back and said you know what I mean the p in the v.

 

It got so bad that day it ended with me saying I should kill myself for her because her happiness is the only thing I care about so if I'm making her sad than that's how it could stop she even got mad at that so I said I'm sorry for saying it right after.

 

The next day I went back to her work she actually talked to me I cried my eyes out and she said she forgave me and loved me again. She even accepted the gifts.

 

That night we had a phone call and said we loved each other again. The only bad part of the phone call is I said I was a little scared to watch her pets when she went on vacation so she doesn't just use me for that. She said she won't and I said I trusted her and that I will watch them.

 

The next day at work she texted me and said why did my sister unfriend her on fb I said idk I can talk to her she just saw me crying. Then she ignored me for the next week and started erasing pics of us on fb. She texted my sister back and not me then My sister said just go to her house.

 

I did and she broke up with me said get out and her parents threatened to call the cops and shoot me because apparently I threatened her I said I didn't do anything I love her and left.

 

The next 2 weeks went by I tried to get her back with a text. She refriended me on fb. Then she saw I went to the bar with a friend he posted getting my boy back in the game not me. And that I accepted like 3 girls on fb. She posted a status saying I was an *******.

 

I texted her and said she can even text my friend I just kept him company at a bar and added friends cause he told me to. She said she was gonna drop off my stuff the next weekend and that she'll call the cops if I went to her house or work. I didn't text back because everyone told me not to. She admit she got guys numbers the week she ignored me and went to college.

 

Then the day when she dropped off my stuff my family said I should leave my house so I don't see her because if I did that day it would be worse. So my whole family left she texted me and said she'll throw my things everywhere if I wasn't home. My family said don't text back because if she did anything damaging we can call the cops on her.

 

I came home and she dropped of everything I ever gave her including love notes from day one. I texted her sorry again and we became friends for the next week. I asked her if she wants to go on a bike ride let me know and she said vice versa.

 

Then later in the week she kept texting me and saying she was hanging out with a lot of guys. So I asked about that bike ride and she said she didn't think that will happen anytime soon so I sent another big text trying to get her back again. She ignored me for another week then said don't text her. Then she started viewing all my snapchat stories and we started posting them as if talking to each other. She said meet her on the bike path in a story as a response to mine.

 

So I went on there with my bike but when I got close to her I saw she was with her mom and turned away from me when I got close so I just rode past them. I got home texted her hi. She sent back don't text me. Then I sent a big one saying I'm always there for her.

 

2 months after the break up now her bday came up I texted her happy bday with a pic of a ruby necklace I was going to give her. She said thanks and she felt bad I still had it. And we texted nicely the whole day.

 

The day after at 3am I texted her a nice good morning so she would see it when she woke up. But she was still awake and texted back that she was tired of me making her feel deevaluated just like the whole time we went out. And that I should just take the porn dating apps and all the girls I cheated on her with and leave because she saw on snapchat that she was second friend now.

 

I flipped out and sent a huge text saying I never did anything and she destroyed me. I said that girl on snapchat was only 1st friend because she just said what's up and morgan didn't talk to me anymore. and i didnt even talk back to her.(I was third on hers btw) I also said I should prob block her number because were just going to go back and forth. She sent back **** you I'm blocking you first. She did. I was never able to block her.

 

A week later I used my friend Justin's phone to say sorry for that. We got no reply. In the beginning weeks of November I downloaded meetme which was a site that she thought I had before to try and move on. But I couldn't and even worse I found her on there. It said she only had it for about 2 weeks after she saw me on it she blocked me. I used a friends account to try and find her after and she erased it now.

 

Now what I'm about to type is a letter that I either want to hand write or send by iMessage with my new iPad. I would like people's opinions what they think I should send to try and get her back and when to send it because I still love her. Also if anybody knows the law I would also like you to tell me if its anything she can get a restraining or no contact order for.

 

No.

 

I don't care what the letter said.

 

You should never talk to this girl ever again.

 

You also need to start seeing a therapist.

[Chemist]

I don't know if I would go as far as Danda,

 

but yeah, don't send her that. you need to get over this girl and move on. Sorry for you that it didn't work out, but now you look clingy, desparate, needy, and a bit stalkerish. Maybe if you had given her more time, she would have been more receptive to warming back up to you.

 

It seems she really liked you, and really was hurt. The comments about seeing other guys was solely to make you feel hurt and jealous. I think she may still have feelings for you, but now doesn't trust you, or worse, is put off by your attempts to rekindle things.

 

I don't necessarily think you need therapy, but you do sound a bit immature and young. P in the V? Man, you should be able to be open about sex, it is the meaning of life. Really, it is. Try to take things slower with your emotions next time.

[Toodaloo]

Oh dear lord.

 

I managed to get about half way down before my eyes started to bleed.

 

So much drama...

 

Stay single and do some growing up I assume P is for penis and V is for vagina?