solong123 Posted December 4, 2014 Posted December 4, 2014 But I am going to post here instead! I have this overwhelming urge to contact my ex and tell him I miss him. I really think this has to do with the holidays and just kind of feeling alone. I really have been trying to focus on myself and going out and doing things for me. I am graduating college in two weeks and I have my whole life ahead of me. Im not sure I even miss him but rather just being in a relationship. That is why I need to post here so I dont do something stupid and text him but regret it later. After thinking about the relationship alot and the breakup (now almost 3 months ago) I am in such a stronger place. I came to the realization that even if he ever did come back and try to get together (which I doubt), I could not do it anyway because he walked away from the relationship without ever trying to fix issues or discuss what was wrong, and jumped right into the single life doing what/who he wanted. I could forgive but never forget and it would always have me wondering if it would happen again. So bottom line I think I am just feeling lonely for the holidays, not used to it, but I would rather be by myself than unhappy in a particular relationship. I guess that was pretty much a vent 1
Chin Up Posted December 4, 2014 Posted December 4, 2014 After thinking about the relationship alot and the breakup (now almost 3 months ago) I am in such a stronger place. I came to the realization that even if he ever did come back and try to get together (which I doubt), I could not do it anyway because he walked away from the relationship without ever trying to fix issues or discuss what was wrong, and jumped right into the single life doing what/who he wanted. I could forgive but never forget and it would always have me wondering if it would happen again. That's what I keep reminding myself. No communication that something was bothering him. No signs that something was amiss. No attempts to work things out. No warning. It was like he woke up and thought "I'm gonna b/u with her today. yawn!" and that was that. I keep reminding myself of how shocked and betrayed I felt. For someone to pull the plug out of the blue, not look back..not even wonder ONCE how I am doing. Wow. I feel like I had him all wrong and never even really knew him I like to entertain the thought of him coming back. It sure would boost my ego and I'd feel vindicated - "HA, I AM missable!" But how can you trust them after all of that? Worrying it would happen again..walking on eggshells and waiting for the bottom to drop out again. No thanks! Holidays always have people feeling nostalgic. I was thinking of sending him an xmas card but changed my mind. Some of the things we did this time of year, last year, are creeping into my head. Like you, I think I'm mostly missing being a relationship for the holidays. On the plus side, we have one less person to shop for this year . I hate to admit it...but I wonder if he will contact me at all to wish me a happy holidays. Doubtful. It's a stand off. No way in hell am I doing it first haha.
blackcat777 Posted December 4, 2014 Posted December 4, 2014 There is something really messed up about people who just throw other people away without batting an eye. It's the kind of messed up that's best to stay away from. It's hard to accept that it's something I'll never understand. I never had a breakup in my life before the last one that was just POOF out of nowhere, no communication, and a mountain of sugary lies (for how long? I'll never know) that everything was fine. So who does that, really? A kind of person you don't want in your life. It's true you'll never be able to know if they'll do it again. Doesn't make it hurt any less, though. (sigh) 1
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