ConfusedMike Posted December 3, 2014 Posted December 3, 2014 I've been good about NC (day 11) and going about my day and a friend innocently asks about my ex-gf and BAM, as if I was shot. The pain and shock was brutal and that sinking feeling just came in waves. I still think about her constantly and I can't believe how hard this is and it's almost impossible to control my emotions. I miss what we shared, I miss her smell, but mostly I miss her. It's brutal and yet I know given the chance, I wouldn't go back to her and I have LSer's to thank for that, for giving me the insight and courage to do what's right. As much as I love her, I could never trust her again and that thought breaks my heart because I trusted her so much...I trusted her with my life. It's hard when I imagine her sharing her time, her heart and her love with someone else and it just makes me physically sick and I want to scream in frustration with the sheer powerlessness to do anything about it other than go about my business, which as this point isn't helping that much. This hurts so bad and I'm trying to see the good in all this, but it's just hard right now.
sober and dry Posted December 14, 2014 Posted December 14, 2014 Well try to seek what you can/have learned in this relationship, that's a starting point and very useful one.
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