What zone am I in?

[rmvasquez808]

I'm going to tell some info. I'm a supervisor at a theater and 18 years old. I have been working there for almost 2 years. I'm cool with this co worker named "H" who has his own apartment. He's got a roommate who has a girlfriend. "H" has mentioned his roommate's girl has a younger sis. Well, a month ago, "H" hooked her up with a job at our spot. I saw her when she came for an interview but I didn't pay any attention. The next week, the schedule was printed and I read her name "S" on it. One Friday comes, and Im more in charge of the cleaning crew, so i walk into the lobby checking it out. Then, I see her. I swept in front of the counters of the concession stand. She was there that night. I said something like "hey, how are you doing?". I don't remember what she said but I do remember we both kinda smiled. That was the only contact with her that night. Maybe like a week later, she was scheduled to work my night shift with 2 other people. "What's going on new girl?", simple greetings.

One Sunday, she was working night in box office, I remember going in there to grab sanity, my excuse to why I was there. My other co worker "B" goes in there to talk too. She mentions she didn't have a ride that night, I offered to which she said yes.

That night we chilled in my car for about 20 mins then left. Time passes maybe a week. I remember she worked concession and when it slowed down, I went there to grab a drink and headed to the back kitchen. That's when we bumped into each other. We asked how each other were doing and blah blah. Then a female co worker walks in the back and says "what are yall doing?" In a way of like googlely I guess. We both chuckled and ignored her.

Since she's been at my job, we've hung out maybe 10 times after work. We both smoke grass. We've teased about "blowing together" but that time, she got off later than I did and I had things to do that night.

One Saturday, I offered to smoke after work in which we did. My brother expected me to "get some" that night but I wasn't expecting. I'm already nervous around her, plus smoking, now I'm really nervous. I'm a shy, quiet guy.

When we talk, it's "how are you doing" or "what's up". Anything else said is based on what she says because well, that's the way she is. When we clean theaters, her and I don't talk directly to eachother but we do respond to other co workers who also clean with us. When we leave the room we're cleaning, I'm the guy with the "light key" to darken the room up, she usually waits for me and opens the door for me. It's always thought by both of us to think it's a coincidence that we meet in the break room at work. But, I can notice in the hallways she'll follow me until I reach the break room, then waits a minute to do some, then enters the break room too. We talk in there, but then we get quiet when a 3rd person goes in there. Then we'll respond to whatever that person says.

A manager has seen us together a couple times at work and she told me that he told her that our General Manager wouldn't approve of us- for us to stay "under the radar". She said she told him that "we're cool".

What sucks is that she mentioned a boyfriend and that she also lives with him. She's 17, and he's 20, living with his mom and little brother. My question- why would a girl hang out with a guy when she has a boyfriend? Why would she accept rides from me? We've never talked about why we hang out other than us just "clicking". I've never complemented her or told her anything about attraction. She hasn't asked why I'm single. I know when everyone has a feeling about someone, you can tell that person feels something for you.

We glance at each other at work a couple times. 2 weeks ago, I got off at 6 and she got off at 8. We talked about smoking when she got off, I'd go back and pick her up. I never attempted to ask for any contact with her outside of work. That night before I left work, she gave me her number and told me to let her know when I'm around later. Later that night, I notice my phone was cut off, so I texted her from my mom's phone and told her to email me instead because I still have data on my phone even if it was cut off. It was quite embarrassing but at least I can say I have her number and she doesn't have mines.

That night we chilled and smoked.

Lately, every time we hang out, we smoke. One of the times we were together, her BF called. She told me she didn't wanna go home to Jim and his family. In my head, it's like "we'll why don't you move out?". Well, she doesn't have anyone else intermediate (didn't spell correctly). Her father is on drugs and has others living with him, and her mother passed away when she was 9. To me, as much time as we spent together, I feel like she doesn't wanna be with him. I feel like she likes me. I've never attempted to hug, kiss or her hold hands with her. I've been constantly wondering what is it she wants from me. I've asked if she feels weird hanging out with me, and she told me no. We left it at that.

Lately, like any other person, I don't want to be at work. But, it's always unminded when she's there, even when we're not working same sections, somehow there will be a way of us to get lone time and ask how we're doing.

There's maybe 3 people at work who might think her and I have a thing, which I don't care, we try to stay hidden at least I try to. Work and relations don't make a tasteful drink.

When we first smoked together, I didnt really think of anything. I kinda ignored the fact she lives with and has a bf. But, we both go up to each other at work. I don't see it as us just conversating, I can't explain it. It's basically- "well she works same time span as me so let's see if she wants to blow" and it's yet to receive a no. People has asked me to smoke with them and I say no because it's only my bro I smoke with, and now her, cause she's cool.

We chill in my car for a couple mins, then go to the same park each time. We've sat on the swings once, we've sat on the bench once also. The "bench night", we actually had a meeting for work (her 2nd meeting and my idk how many). We talked about whether smoking before or after the meeting. She had that special charm to get me to blow before the meeting. My general manager requires me to talk in front of everyone (something I hate) at the meeting. It sucked. I just wanted to leave and smoke with "S" again; something we both agreed to.

Arriving at the theater (our workplace), I noticed my co worker "B", looking out the glass doors. This co worker is cool, and we're racist to eachother on purpose cause we're cool like that. Well I really didnt want him seeing "S" and I walking together to the doors; we bothed laughed because only his moronic self would stare out the door.

Upon entering the doors, I noticed her and I were the last 2 to get there. Everyone's sitting there and they look at us, which I didn't care, as long as no rumors or anything spread. Well she started talking to "H" (the co worker whose roommate is the boyfriend of "S"'s sister) I go to "B" who was signaling me to his space of standing. He says "dang you are one stoned sack of ****" (me and "S" had nun to worry about, we had eye drops). "B" and I laughed at some stuff we conversated about. Where we were at, left me a view of "S" talking to "H", but I didn't wanna stare at her. I would look around to the other co workers conversating to their work bestees, then "S" and I would link together with our eyes. Then we looked away.

My 2nd in-line manager "J" tells us to go to theater 10 (our biggest) for the meeting. We're all walking and "J" walked pass me, then turns back, inhales, then smiles, signaling that I probably smelled strong ("S" and I smoked a blunt, something I prefer when blowing). He blows too so he didn't give as long as our GM didn't trip.

I kinds hoped she would've sat next to me at the meeting but she sat next to her co worker friend "A" who is lesbian ("S" told me she tried talking to her and she said no lol). Which is good, or else people would be thinking things about us. "S" told me "A" asked if she smoked with me, she said no. That reminded me that "B" asked if "S" smoked with me, and I said no.

After the meeting, "B" and I clocked out and talked outside the entrance for maybe 3-5 mins. He mentioned rounds with "H" so I knew he was waiting for him. Everyone's starting to leave, but can't without "S". Maybe a minute later, "S" and "H" walk out the glass doors. I get a little glance at her, we both smiled at each other. The 4 of us began to talk then began to part ways then realizing "H" is walking with us ("S" and I). "B" hops in his truck and drives backwards following us to my car which I parked not close. It's also 12:30 am by now. "S" told me, she was lending "H" some cash- reason he followed us to the car. As for "B", he parked his car next to mines. It was like "come on guys, I'm ready to go" in my head. "B" entered the backseat of my car. It's me in driver, "S" in passenger, and "H" outside the passenger door. "S" spoke to "H" about something and then that's when "B" asked aloud "R__ (my name) so this is your backseat huh?".. in my head, I was hoping she didn't hear him because to me, it was hinting what he thought we'd "do" when we left. He and I laughed and I told him yes. I don't think "S" heard because she was still talking to "H". "B" and "H" leave and then me and "S" left too.

We went back to the same park, this time we stayed in the car. I always ask her where for us to sit, most of the time it's my car. When I'm with her, it's not possible for me to start a conversation with her. She's the one saying something. When we're smoking, I like to make her feel like "dang he's got options" because there's always 2 different flavor blunts rolled for her to choose from. Which ever is not chosen, is chosen for my brother and I later on.

The first couple times we hung out, i didn't think much of her, and recently, I started wanting to stay in contact with her.I've emailed her a couple times, we both respond late to eachother. It never ends in a goodnight or starts with a good morning. We probably emailed likeep on 4 separate occasions haha. There will be days we don't talk or msg. She responds if I email her but I don't want to. If we don't talk outside of work, it makes the next time I see her a special moment.

I don't hang out with anyone other than my brother, but for the past month that "S" has worked there, I've been around with her too. I've been wondering if she ever thinks about me or thinks of any situations involving the both of us like I do.

The past couple times we've hung out, I've wanted to ask her these questions but the 99% chance of rejection turns me around because I don't wanna ruin what little thing we got now nor do I want to make it awkward. But, when I'm with her, her existence puts a blocker in my head and tells me "whatever happens, happens". I know there's signs telling me she might ... Today's Tuesday, last time we hung out was Sunday night. There's been no contact.

Guys and Girls, what do yall think?