blue_eyes18 Posted March 18, 2005 Posted March 18, 2005 Well, last night I had to go over there and talk to him. He finally said we aren't together, we should just be friends, after a little argument. I don't know if he is just not ready for a relationship, but he wants to be friends. I said"So this means I talk to other guys?" and he was real quiet, and he said"Oh so it's like that now?" I was like "Uh yeah.....Derrrrrrrrrrrrr!" What does he expect? Me to start whining and begging? although I did cry c ause I was so ****in pissed at him for draggin this out. He told me he didn't feel this way until today(which was yesterday) that he was doing this so he could get some space, that he never meant he wanted to break up when he asked for space. He said he really likes me and I am beautiful, but he can't go out with someone who gets mad at him for not being stuck up there a$$. I know it sounds like he has a point, but he went over board. I tried to give him time and his space, although I prolly should have never called him like I did. Maybe this is for the best though. If he can't give me what I want, I can't handle it. I know that sounds selfish, but It got to be too stressful wondering when I was gonna hear from him and if he was for real or not, I thought he was. I don't know now. I justcan't believe he pitched such a fit because he thought I was arguing with one of my exes. And he pitched the fit the day before he said we weren't together anymore. I think he was getting angry last night and stuff, I could tell he couldn't decide what he wanted really. I think maybe him and I want different things right now. I jsut don't get why when we first met, he acted like he was all about spending time together. THen when I didn't tell him I loved him and all that bull****, he backed off and it got worse and worse. So maybe I saved myself some trouble, or maybe I made it worse. I cried so bad lastn ight though. I hope I didn't make him feel too bad. I just don't see how he can put me through that and then ask if he can still call me. That's the whole reason we argued really is cause I couldn't just sit there and not hear from him or whatever and be run over. Do you think I should tell him he can call me whenever he wants to and we can be friends, or should I just ignore him? Call me crazy. I don't know if I was right or wrong. I think he just didn't want anything serious like he made me think at first. I think once it came down to it, he just wanted to chill a lot and I thought it was my fault. So I called alot trying to make things better. Screw up number 1. Anyways, if he calls, he calls. I am so tired of guys like him. THey need to get their **** together and figure out what they want before messing with women. I think I am more ill right now than hurt because I stressed out for so long over that dumb ****. I think he still likes me a lot though, unless he thoght I was a psycho last night. lol Just kidding, I wasn't THAT bad!!! *)
Author blue_eyes18 Posted March 18, 2005 Author Posted March 18, 2005 It's not that I really want to talk to other guys right now really, cause I did start liking this guy my posts are about. BUT, say I did decide to go somewhere with one, even tonight maybe?, wouldn't I have a right to after what he said? And then after he says it, he acts like I am not supposed to think that way? WHATEVER!!!!!!!! It's the whole point of it.
Author blue_eyes18 Posted March 18, 2005 Author Posted March 18, 2005 I am seriously thinking about going to his house after he gets home from work today and telling him we can be friends and let him know I am not mad? Then again, he might not like that. He might think I am coming over to bitch him out or something after our arguement last night.!!! Do you think I should or just leave him alone completely? Just leave him alone I guess.
IhavenoFREAKINclue Posted March 18, 2005 Posted March 18, 2005 You can talk to whoever you want. Don't feel guilty for it. He ended it. You are as free as booty call right now. Live it up. The single life is great. Try cutting yourself from him.....totally. Take him out of your cell, buddy list. Any record of him. It will get easier. I'm sure he wanted you to beg for him back. That what guys like. Thats why No contact works. Once you don't show interest in them anymore, they think you got over them and they go nut when girls aren't grovelling........ Have fun hunny.......smoke a blunt, drink a beer and have random sex. Single life is great isn't it? lol
Author blue_eyes18 Posted March 18, 2005 Author Posted March 18, 2005 Girlllll..... you sound like a cool bitch!!! I HEAR ya! Sounds just like my plans for 2night!!! hehe I don't give a **** if he sees me with another guy or whatever. He ended it, like you said.
IhavenoFREAKINclue Posted March 18, 2005 Posted March 18, 2005 Originally posted by blue_eyes18 Girlllll..... you sound like a cool bitch!!! I HEAR ya! Sounds just like my plans for 2night!!! hehe I don't give a **** if he sees me with another guy or whatever. He ended it, like you said. I am a cool bitch!!!! lol My guy ended it with me. Of course, the first 3 hours were hard but them i took a shot of tequila and it was like Tom who? Not really but you get my drift. As soon as i stopped talking to him via NC (advice given to me from the wonderful LS) he went nuts, i mean psycho, following me on dates, waiting outside my house when i got home from a date. Calling my guy friends to scare them into not talking to me. I never could smoke when i was with him, go to the beach.......NOTHING!!! Now I'm the tannest pothead you will meet! You never know what your missing until you can actually experience it and WHOOOOOOO WEEEEEEE is it fun!!!! Now for the moral of the story......... IF YOU WERE HAPPY BEFORE HIM, YOU WILL BE HAPPY AFTER HIM
IhavenoFREAKINclue Posted March 18, 2005 Posted March 18, 2005 So have all the fun you can while your young!
MWC_LifeBeginsAt40 Posted March 18, 2005 Posted March 18, 2005 young or old! LOL We broke up yesterday on the phone (6 month affair) and I still hope I see his truck in my driveway waiting for me! I wrote a long letter to him but only saved it on my PC and NOT going to email it, NOT going to call him, AM going to talk to whoever I want online, offline, wherever whenever! And I didn't do tequila but red wine did the trick, so far so good. I'm not ready to delete the emails he has sent, but I will delete the text messages, that's a start right?
IhavenoFREAKINclue Posted March 18, 2005 Posted March 18, 2005 Originally posted by MWC_LifeBeginsAt40 but I will delete the text messages, that's a start right? Yes it is!!! Start like that, then the emails, and letters and messages. Slowly but surley you will wheen you way off of thinking about him. Doing everyday normanl things and realizing that your not thinking about them! Its like a breath of fresh air!
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