ForbiddenFruit Posted November 22, 2014 Posted November 22, 2014 The leaves are falling along with me. Its November, I avoid eye contact all day, and when it happens... I giggle and he almost breaks into a giggle as well-midway through his lecture. I never thought anything about my professor, as a matter of fact we never even spoke until the day he sensually said,"you should continue giving feedback in class discussions, you have really good input." with a soft sweet smile. I left the class that day in a fog, I had butterflies in my stomach and my heart was racing. It was genuine. And then I crushed.... After that day, whenever I hand in exams or papers or when he passes papers back I feel a sort of electricity. It feels as if we are bonded somehow, or maybe it is just a fantasy.. But before I go any further..I would just like you to know that he is not married or taken. When he teaches he is so charismatic and compassionate, he is tall, slender but toned, but what I'm really attracted to is the intellectuals. He is so intelligent, and so open minded about everything. At some point we began having short talks after class about class related or non class related subjects, he even recommended I take his second follow up class, since I like this one so much.. and then one day I recommended a great video that related to the class subject. Then, I received an email giving thanks, for about the fourth time. And then came Wednesday.... I was flattered... that Professor X took the time out of his day to search for my email, addressed me by my name and gave thanks(now for the 5th time) and feedback to my recommendation. So of course it was going to be hard for me to make eye contact without getting all fidgety and giggly. So when class ended I was too fidgety and giggly to have a conversation with him so I calmly rushed to the exit, but on my way out he stopped me-smiled- and told me thanks (now the 6th time) for the recommendation, and then it was just a bunch of small talk that made no sense at all. It was like one of those movies where two people are crushing on eachother but don't really know what to say, so its just a bunch of mumbo jumbo talk BUT At some point I believe I saw him check me out....But I cannot be sure. Once again I left with my head in a fog, butterflies in my stomach, and my heart beating too fast. This is my second year in college I am 19 and he is 30-32. Huge age difference, but my goal is not to sleep with this man or begin a romantic relationship. I am just as passionate for the subject as he is, and it is so attractive how genuine and sincere he is. He literally makes me weak in the knees without the kissing, or touching. Although.... it would feel good to be touched and kissed by such a perfect someone, and I may want to.... I am crushing... and it is so tempting. Its like the perfect man- but I know we all have flaws. If only.. I just don't know what to do, a crush is just a crush. but it feels so good.
darkmoon Posted November 22, 2014 Posted November 22, 2014 (edited) do not become his/a secret, you will have to pretend you are not his girl, on the sidelines, while other girls openly chat to their professor, once you sleep with a man, the game can change, you do not know what his dating history is, what are his tendencies, his likely behaviour, good and bad you might need to contact the college authorities right now or tell him to cool things til you are no longer his student, date then he has yet to prove his love, up to him how, why is he persuing you and does he know you are only jokily crushing? Edited November 22, 2014 by darkmoon
Tayken Posted November 22, 2014 Posted November 22, 2014 (edited) @OP....you seem to be enjoying all this by the sound of your post. You are a young woman who is in school to learn and not be getting giddy over some assumed crush. It sounds like you are flirting with this man more than he is you. This is your time to carve a foundation for the rest of your life, and the last thing you need is a distraction to derail all this. I am sure you've told all your friends about this, and it is making for good gossip on your social media feeds...I'll say cut it out, grow up and focus on school. But before I go any further..I would just like you to know that he is not married or taken. You've gone out of your way to find all this out, and mention him sending you an email?...Right Edited November 22, 2014 by Tayken
d0nnivain Posted November 22, 2014 Posted November 22, 2014 Enjoy the crush & the fantasy but keep them in the realm of your own mind at least until you graduate. 1
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