Mocski Posted November 19, 2014 Posted November 19, 2014 First, some people are probably going to find pathetic but its my story and I am really struggling with it.... I met the most amazing, beautiful and intelligent woman.... online. We started talking through e-mails and web-chat and after a couple of days we moved onto Skype. It was a dream start, we had a lot in common, shared the same interests and there was never a awkward moment where we didn't have something to talk about or we would find a movie or tv show to start watching as we couldn't meet up to do these things, she lives in Germany.. I never thought I would be one to meet someone online but this happened so naturally and we started off talking as friends, after we shared pictures and so fourth, we realised there was an attraction there and things escalated. So we were treating it as a long distance relationship, even though we hadn't actually met and formed "real" feelings. This was going on for a month before she put forward the idea of going to spend a week with her in Germany and meet her family / friends as she had already told them so much about me. I was more than happy to agree and we booked the flight, she even offered to pay half, which of course I declined being the gentlemen I am. After a couple of months we started using the word "love" and we started spending a lot of more time in Skype together, which I thought was a bit extreme but made sense as I had never been this interested in someone before. I guess at this point I should add we met shortly after she had broken up with her ex, something like a month after or so. And of course I was concerned about being some form of rebound, which I asked her and she denied and we continued our long distance "relationship" of course we shared doubts but in a positive way "what if you don't like the way I move" and stupid stuff like that which I found amusing as we both really wanted it to work. This is the part where it all came crashing down; 2 weeks prior to me leaving for Germany she hits me with "I don't want you to come and see me" a moment I will never forget... we were breaking up and I have no idea what happened. She was afraid that she was just using me to make herself feel good and that it was too soon after her recent breakup, that she was never really in love with me, even though she would say it on a daily bases, even went to the extreme saying I was the one she had been looking for all her life. She apologised and said it was just her being very selfish and I don't know what to make of it all. I should add she got really burnt by her ex, another one she met online who cat-fished her for over 2 years before coming clean, he basically lied about his looks (made a fake Facebook profile) and also lied about his parents being dead among other things, something i'll never understand, maybe he was looking for sympathy however she still met up with him afterwards to try and make it work but it of course it didn't. Anyway, to say that I haven't handled this well would be an understatement. I feel like it's my fault she wanted to break it off and not meet to see what could happen, after all she met this complete psychopath. I can't shake the feeling that she just thought it wouldn't be worth it - perhaps she was confused about certain feelings but who knows how she would have felt if we actually had some real face time together. I suffer with low confidence, I'm not happy within myself at all and before all this she was actually changing that, I know I shouldn't look to someone for validation but she made me feel wanted. She hasn't directly said that she doesn't want to meet me because of my personality or looks but I really feel defeated by this and worthless. I'm sorry this is so long winded, I have a lot running through my head at the moment and just need to vent some of it off.
Mischa1 Posted November 23, 2014 Posted November 23, 2014 http://s29.postimg.org/ooh9dszs7/b7_DRJp_K.jpg After I saw this picture, I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm sorry I made you feel the way you feel right now, it wasn't something I planned on doing. But when some of your friends linked me to this picture, I knew I'm not the one for you and you're not interstred in me but in one of the guys on this picture. Once again, sorry if I broke your heart and made you feel the way you do, but I'm sure you will find someone else and everything will be back to normal once again. Good luck to you and have fun!
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