Not even sure exactly

[cliffmmt]

Hey everyone. So a little over 4 months ago my girlfriend of 3 years and mother of my daughter broke up with me. She spent the last day doing nothing but yelling and picking fights with me then texted me while i was at my friends house trying to cool off that she didnt want to be together. At the time i didnt say to much because at first i felt relived honestly, but also didnt take it too seriously. She said she "didnt hate me" or anything and that she didnt even want me to move out because she still wanted to raise our daughter together. When i spoke to her in person she was calm and told me to just go out with my friend that night for his birthday and later before i left said it was ok if something happened with me and another girl. I went out told my friends the situation and slowly got more and more upset with the situation. By the time i got home i was very drunk and pretty much crawled into bed and begged her not to leave. The next 2 days she called me babe again and would kiss me good by and everything but seemed very angry and the 2nd day she told me she didnt want to be with me. I find out about a week after this started that she apparently was "suddenly" interested in a coworker and had actually mentioned him to her friend prior to the break up. I freaked out and woke her up yelling and screaming but stopped myself because our daughter woke up. I tried to talk it out and find out what had happened between us and with what she told me i asked her to just give things a month or 2 to change and see if anything gets better. she agreed and told me she really did love me and want to be with me but again 2 days later she comes home from work and breaks up with me again.

 

I left the house and stayed with my friend for about a week. id go over and we would fool around still. the first day after we were done she told me she wanted me back and i told her i needed to think about it. the next day i went again and suddenly she had changed her mind again. I left upset but texted her telling her how much her and our family meant among a lot of things. And then i wake up the next day to her asking me to come home. We spent the day together and at the end of the day she was telling me how sorry she was and that she felt like she did when she was 17 and we had first started dating again. All i asked her was to just try to slowly stop talking to the guy from work and to just show me she cared so i could trust her and she did for the most part. but after a week she came home and barely said hi and had been talking to him again and when i said i cant do this she said then i should just go. I moved back into my parents house not long after which was about month after this started. Ive been depressed and spent days just trying to get her to change her mind but nothing. I eventually calmed down but i still have my days where i cant help but say something. Its been 3 months since i left. I want to go out and maybe try to talk to other people but i always end up stuck at home. I get bored and end up checking her tumblr and facebook. She isnt with this guy. But Idk if anything is happening or not at this point. as of lastt month nothing had even though shes tried to have him come out with her and her friends but he never showed. She came with me and my friends to a concert and eventually started dancing all over me and being very sexual and had no problem with me touching her and kissing her neck, then suddenly she was telling me to stop. We've gone back and forth on being on good friendly terms. Just last week we had a 90 minute phone conversation. But shes messed with me so much back and forth and lied to me about so many things like that she wanted to stay together get married and have more children or that we should just take a break and work on ourselves when meanwhile she was inviting the guy from work out.

 

 

Ive had everyone tell me that she's going to try and get me back eventually. i just dont know. I get depressed for me and her because although i wasnt always happy and sometimes id do stupid things or have thoughts of leaving id always have a good day with her that reminded me of how i feel. She was my best friend. I get upset for my daughter because i wish i could do something about it but i cant. Idk exactly what advice to get. I just know that at this point i should probably just leave her alone and not talk aside from what involves our daughter and just try to move on. It just gets difficult because more often than not i find myself stuck alone thinking about everything over and over.

 

 

sorry that thes so much or if its confusing. Just a lots happened and honestly that not even all of it but i figured what i did write are the more important parts

Edited November 18, 2014 by cliffmmt