Any suggestions?

[stan98]

Not really sure what to do right now. My girlfriend left me two months ago after three years of dating. The first month i was so distraught. Days of sitting in my rooms crying and just couldnt do anything. She was the love of my life and the person i just never wanted to be apart from. But the last month ive been getting out but still feels like theres just a huge hole on my life. I left her alone for awhile to see if something changed but started to feel like i needed to say something. I had been going through some pretty tough times prior to this break up in my family but now things are getting better so i decided to write her a long message because it felt right i cant really explain it and it wasnt a message begging for her back or anything like that but just letting her know that things in my family are getting better and that im going away to school in January and just a bunch of stuff of how im doing. She goes to school two hours away but i still always wanted to be with her. We talked for awhile and actually talked pretty friendly it felt just like it used too and i missed it dearly. She wants to get together over christmas break and have lunch but i dont know where this is going to go. Because i dont know what she wants from me because shes the only thing i want. I would take her back in a second but i dont want to be led on and just be heartbroken again so im not sure what to do. If anyone could give me some advice id greatly appreciate it

[swimmergal]

You need to be as friendly as possible if you decide to go to lunch without putting any pressure on her. Tell her how well you have been doing and accomplishments you have made since your break up. It will be the hardest thing you do but showing her you have striven to improve yourself may make her see you in a new light as opposed to you wallowing and begging for her back. You had a long significant relationship and if it is meant to be it will!