Author creyente7 Posted November 12, 2014 Author Posted November 12, 2014 They make not talking to you, not texting, or calling you look so easy. I don't want her back, there's just too much problems to want her back, but we had a mutual break up. We broke up due to the distance and me being needy. Sometimes I just want to see how she's doing. I care about her well being, I enjoy talking to her, laughing, sharing jokes. It seems like non of these she even cares about. Sometimes I feel lonely, but I try my best to spend time with friends and enjoy time with them. I hate this feeling. Not sure when it'll go away but I feel like I'm healing each day.
tikay00 Posted November 12, 2014 Posted November 12, 2014 Ride the waves, and focus on yourself. Who the hell cares what she's up to, because obviously she doesn't care, or she's healing as well. Give it time, and hopefully you won't care by then.
me85 Posted November 12, 2014 Posted November 12, 2014 The simple fact that you are having these feelings means you are indeed healing, for sure. They do make it look so easy and I'm sure it probably is easy for them. They were ready to stop talking to you before they actually stopped seeing you. They get a lovely head start on the moving on process. But whatever. Eventually they realize in some way they were to blame and their guilt gradually catches up with them. They start to miss you and wonder how you are...then the inevitable happens...they reach out. Hopefully by that point you won't even care to respond. Best wishes! J 1
stillafool Posted November 12, 2014 Posted November 12, 2014 Just keep busy, busy and more busy. This is the best way to keep your thoughts off of her and what she's doing.
Author creyente7 Posted November 15, 2014 Author Posted November 15, 2014 (edited) Like title says, funny what life throws out at you. Dated my ex for 2 years. Longest she's dated anyone. Shes been with, id say 5 guys which most of them didn't treat her right, or cheated on her. Her first boyfriend cheated on her...this is where the sad part comes in, she gives him another chance!!! From what I heard, it took her months of pain to move on...Im not gonna lie, I wasnt the best bf either, but I never hit her, or cheated on her. After we break up, how is this affecting her? Close to zero!!!! Not one f*ck is given. Yup, she's out having fun, smiling, laughing, kind of like a relief im out of her life. What do I get in return? Nothing... I get no second chances, no texts, no phone calls, no emails. Let alone we've shared many things together, even to a point we almost had a baby but I wont get into details about that, it didnt end well. Not my fault though. Well Im sure she doesn't owe me anything, she doesn't owe me happiness. Just kind of kills my ego, my self esteem. Did I not give her the love she deserved after all the crap she dealt with before me? I dont understand this at all. She's about to be 21 soon. So I already know what she wants to do with that time. Be a sloot, party, drink, grind on other men at clubs, go to bars. I saved her life once, It was when we went to a spring break party, she drank half a bottle of everclear, almost got alcohol poisoning... Luckily, I got her to puke it all out, gave her water, gave her a bath, laid her sideways in bed. I care about her, I hope she doesn't do anything stupid, I know she likes her freedom and takes it to the extreme. I ask myself why do I care so much about this person and not one f*ck is given to me? Life is unfair. I gave her every part of me. All my fears, my weakness, my strengths she knew. I understood her on a deep level, and so did she. She doesn't owe me anything, but trying to understand how a person can treat you like this when you've given everything to them. Sometimes I wonder if I deserve this, if its part of my destiny, that this is a life learning lesson...Maybe she wasnt the one, because if she was, wouldn't she still be here no matter what obstacle life gives you? I saw her as "the one" now I can't even say the same thing about her. I feel like two years was full of lies, all the promises, all the dreams, all the hopes and wishes we one day wanted to have was all a lie. I feel like I was played all this time. I hope she finds someone who will treat her better than I did. If she does, I will personally send her a cake saying congratulations. But I doubt it, she likes guys that will treat her like ****. One day she'll realize what she lost. But id be so far gone that when she realizes this I would have already forgotten the little tiny dimple she has on her butt. Sucks losing such a girl with potential. Man she could cook, she was good in bed, satisfied all my fantasies. A girl with ambition. I really do hope she finds someone she can be happy with even if its not me. I was willing to give the world to her, I guess she wanted the universe. I wish I can get one last kiss. Im just ranting. Im pissed off. Edited November 15, 2014 by creyente7
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