jak77 Posted November 10, 2014 Posted November 10, 2014 Hi guys, So I was with my ex for 1 year, it was really an incredible relationship. Most beautiful thing in my life. We called each other every day, had crazy and funny moments...Not a single fight, really a perfect relationship. I just loved being with her more than anything else We were 2 shy persons, the love that we didn't have for ourselves we found it in that relationship, which became really strong. I realize now that it was not healthy since a forgotten myself into this relationship but it still worth a fight. We had great projects : living together, getting married someday... I just didn't even though it could end. We decided that we would spend a year abroad, both of us (different countries). The first month my ex stayed at home, whereas I went abroad, and everything was fine between us. Things were pretty difficult for me, I started a mild depression and decided to consult a therapist. A month after that she went abroad too, and everything collapsed. Like me, she started to feel really bad (anxiety, depression). But unlike me, she refused to get better. She already went to therapies, it didn't work and she has the conviction that she couldn't get better. I saw her shape worsen, day after day until it was too late. The more I was trying to help her, the more she refused to listen to me, saying that I shouldn't give her excuses, that she was a mess. She continued to destroy herself, a lot of alcohol during parties... After that everything collapsed. 3 weeks after she started to study abroad, she kissed a guy. A week after that, she told me that she had feelings for him, that she didn't know if she loved me anymore. So I tried again and again to tell her that it could get better, that she should see a therapist and everything would be okay again. But she just had the conviction that she couldn't get better and that she didn't love me anymore. Finally she dumped me, saying that "LDR is too hard for her". So here I am... The fantastic relationship we had, gone in 3 weeks. So I don't know what to think... On the one hand, I think that she destroyed this in order to hurt her, to destroy her even more than what she was doing previously On the other hand I'm so angry that she did that in only a few weeks... She litteraly destroyed me. I know that I can't force her to get better, but i don't know what to do... I have this hope, that in several weeks, or months she will realize what she did, and why, and that she will come back... And then maybe I'll be able to forgive her This hope is literally killing me. I would really like to believe that she just stopped to love me, or that I did a mistake that explains everything, but I can't... Or perhaps, she just didn't love me that much, and it just stopped to exist... But I find it hard to believe. I really need your help guys
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