AaronSG Posted November 10, 2014 Posted November 10, 2014 (edited) Hello folks, it's taken close to three hours to regain my thoughts, regain my composure, dry my eye's and telling myself "it's going to be okay", three hours until I felt calmed down enough to sit in one place, like here at my computer and type this post. About three hours ago I was coming back home for one of my three 2.5 mile walks per week. Everything was going great at the start, I was seeing the cars drive by, seeing some people out walking the streets, heck even saw one walking her dog, it felt nice to be out of the house, it felt nice to see the activity and hear the night time sounds that make up my city. As I approached my complex I got out my little gate remote and open the front security gate and walked through, while walking through the main parking lot, as to get to my home, I heard that familiar rumbling roaring sound on the distant horizon. I really didn't think much about the incoming plane, that is until I got curious about what time I was ending my walk. I looked at my phone and it said 12:08am! Then it hit me, with the plane still distantly approaching, my thoughts without even warning me drifted off back to August-3rd, the day my ex-faince walked out the front door for the last time and around 7:30pm to board a shuttle van and got driven to Sacramento International Airport. For some reason my mind was super clear to the departure details, my mind was allowing me to remember them as if it was yesterday. She needed to get to the Airport by 9:00pm, and would be boarding a United Airlines plane around 11:30pm, then shortly there after at 12:08am her flight would take off and she would be truly gone! So this all was flooding back into me, I stopped walking, took a look up into the night sky and watched the lights of the plane get closer, then as it entered the airspace almost over my home I thought to myself, one of those took my love away from me, one of those was my ex-faince's chariot out of here, one of those took what I had and left me with nothing! At this point my emotions without warning got the best of me, I felt those old feelings resurface again when I would get real pissed off with the sounds of planes flying at night, all so remembering that one of those took something very special to me away! So all I could do was stand there, looking into the sky at this plane which was now directly overhead, all I could do was be choked up, emotional and crying a little. I thought back to the her very early morning departure on the morning of August-4th, she was on one of those planes, sitting in her seat, she was all alone, maybe regretting, maybe emotional, maybe crying, or perhaps smiling and thinking "thank God", who knows, whatever, but none the less the thought of the fact that she was up there all alone really bugged me. Then my thoughts drifted off to the fact that it was moments like this that I wish my home wasn't located inside the Sacramento International Airports Eastward bound launch path, all planes out of my Airport, that are heading to such places like Denver, Salt Lake City, Reno, Kansas City, New York, Boston all fly over my home to get there. And the real kicker, my thought this morning drifted to the plane again, wondering what it's final destination was? Because I also know, that my Airport launches 1 to 2 planes a day that head to somewhere I have been, somewhere that once upon a time was a special place to me because my ex-faince was born and raised there, I meet her there when I flew there back in May 2013, I know my Airport launches 1 to 2 planes daily that are bound for Port Columbus International Airport in Columbus Ohio, a place where both my former Fiance and that City still have a little piece of my heart. A grown man of 44 years old standing in a parking lot late at night, watching a plane and crying like a baby, what the f**k has happened to me, why the f**k does my mind sometimes allow this to happen, it's just a plane, it's been over three months now, I knew she wasn't on that plane, but still a small piece of my mind almost thought she was! I don't know if this is a "set back" or not! I guess all it took was for me to see the time of 12:08am, I guess that triggered it, who knows, I'm just doing my best to get over this rare emotional and memory filled incident. Thanks for reading! Edited November 10, 2014 by AaronSG
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