ThumbingMyWay Posted March 15, 2005 Posted March 15, 2005 Focus on the positive. Focus on Hope Betrayal of the Heart….after experiencing this feeling….I believe it is the single most destructive act that a human spirit can endure. Jesus was perfect. Everything He did was perfect. He had no faults. But at the moment He was crucified on the cross…..the precise moment He asked his Father: “Why have you forsaken me?” That was the exact moment when the Christ became human….thru the act of betrayal….he felt ALL the pain of being a human. It was his destiny, he was betrayed by God so that He could take away our pain. It was Gods plan for His children…… And knowing this, and understanding this…..I will for ever be grateful to Him. In time we will all feel His pain as he felt on the cross…….but if we turn over our spirit to him….we WILL be healed: Matthew 11:28-30 “Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light” I became human on March 1, 2005……and I can now begin my journey to truth and love….it all makes sense with me now…..I was betrayed for a reason....it was to give me rest…..as hard as that is to understand and accept…that is the reason. Sorry if I come across all preachy….but I have been searching for something to fill the void in my spirit…….and for ME….my faith is my healer….its something I cant explain….but I am glad I have Him to lean on… thank you
Mz. Pixie Posted March 15, 2005 Posted March 15, 2005 Thumbing- how beautiful. I feel exactly the same way!
EC Posted March 15, 2005 Posted March 15, 2005 I think that was beautiful as well. I never really looked at it that way...but I completely understand.
whichwayisup Posted March 15, 2005 Posted March 15, 2005 Thumbs, I am not a religious person at all, but I DO find what you said very inspiring and I'm really happy that you have found your way and in the process of healing and handling everything the way you are. Infact, in such a short period of time, with everything you've endured, it is incredible you are where you are now!
Author ThumbingMyWay Posted March 15, 2005 Author Posted March 15, 2005 And if I focus on its meaning....it WILL set me free of my pain..... FOCUS: The state of maximum distinctness or clarity Close or narrow attention; concentration A condition in which something can be clearly apprehended or perceived To direct toward a particular point or purpose To concentrate attention or energy
sylviaguardian Posted March 16, 2005 Posted March 16, 2005 Thumbs, I am an agnostic but I find what you say very powerful. I realised a long time ago that when people go through a period where they hit rock bottom that this is indeed when we 'become human'. When people reach their darkest night, they learn to have empathy for others' suffering and more importantly, they learn to value the things that are the most precious. People who have had very straightforward happy lives can sometimes tend towards valuing superficial things. On this site, someone ( I can't remember who- sorry) said that the only people who truly value honest and trust are those who have been betrayed themselves. For me this is not the first betrayal. My marriage was one of the most important things in the world to me and it was the thing in my life that I was most proud of, despite having had some other major achievements. For me, dropping that 'ideal' is hard. I am not sure why betrayal within a marriage should be so painful when it is apparent that humans have the capacity to be attracted to lots of different people. Sometimes I wonder if the expectations that we have of other people are unrealistic. Most parents would not betray their children as they have a biological drive to protect them that lasts a lifetime. With adult partners, I am not so sure if the bond to protect or love can ever be as strong. Whatever the case, it sure does hurt! Syl
Author ThumbingMyWay Posted March 16, 2005 Author Posted March 16, 2005 Originally posted by sylviaguardian I am not sure why betrayal within a marriage should be so painful when it is apparent that humans have the capacity to be attracted to lots of different people. Well....to me its painful, becasue when I took my vows, one of the them was to forsake all others......and my wife didnt live up to her part.....so it hurts. But am I attrached to others.....yes, but it goes no further than a thought in my head. Sometimes I wonder if the expectations that we have of other people are unrealistic........With adult partners, I am not so sure if the bond to protect or love can ever be as strong. I am beginning to think this too.....I look at myself and my conviction to marriage and think why is this so hard for some people....I guess i just dont understand.
SleepingLover Posted March 16, 2005 Posted March 16, 2005 Aye, Thumbing. It is very hard to understand. It took me a long time to forgive my ex, as the saying goes..."forgiveness is divine", but when I did I felt a lot of relief. Originally posted by sylviaguardian On this site, someone ( I can't remember who- sorry) said that the only people who truly value honest and trust are those who have been betrayed themselves. I truly believe that statement. I could never put anyone I care for through the kind of anguish that I suffered through, myself. It is the worst kind of pain I have ever had to endure. You truly feel, at some point, that you are going to lose your mind and your chest is always in a knot. You become nervous and tremble a lot and can't focus even on the smallest of tasks. You begin to slip into a depression where you would just rather sleep your day away and even if you sleep for 14 hours, you never feel refreshed and could easily lay back down and sleep another 14. I occassionally still slip into those depressive moods where I can't focus and will just go to bed, but after 3 years they are starting to wane and are becoming less frequent.
sylviaguardian Posted March 16, 2005 Posted March 16, 2005 Originally posted by ThumbingMyWay I am beginning to think this too.....I look at myself and my conviction to marriage and think why is this so hard for some people....I guess i just dont understand. I am afraid that maybe there is nothing to understand. Some people have a high internal moral code that they can live up to, some people have the internal moral code, but not the strength to live up to it when they are tempted and some have a moral code that is different to what some of us might consider to be ideal. In this world, there will always be those who consider the feelings of others and those who don't (for various reasons). The problem is when people who 'do the right thing' do not have this reciprocated (i.e. bad things happen to 'good' people). At the end of the day though, just because we act in a just or kind way ourselves does not automatically mean that people will treat us the same way in return. The world does not work in that way. How many times have we said to ourselves "It wasn't fair" or "I didn't deserve to be treated like this"? These statements are true but there is no immanent justice in life - it's a myth taught to us as children. What we have to do is be true to ourselves and to live our lives in a way that is acceptable to us - only that way can we find peace. Syl
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