polaske93 Posted November 9, 2014 Posted November 9, 2014 Seems like I have a few solid days where I look at what my ex put me through, and i laughter at how stulip I am for missing her. I feel like I never met her and I'm ontop of the world again.. then I'll wake up at 3 in the morning crying. And for a few days I can hardly drag myself out of bed and just want to get drunk to drown out the pain. I'm sick of these back and forth emotions.. it's been about 2 months since the breakup now. But still feels like my heart was broken yesterday. I started smoking cigarettes and drinking alot more then usual.
lyndaaxo Posted November 9, 2014 Posted November 9, 2014 How long were you together for? It takes time to get over a break up, but the first steps are up to you. You can't wallow, you have to get up and do something to make yourself feel better, the rest will follow.
tikay00 Posted November 9, 2014 Posted November 9, 2014 Yes, that's absolutely normal. We're human beings with hearts. Just think about something else when it happens. Did that this morning, and it worked! Just not the crying part. When you cry that means you're actively trying to think about something really deep in your past relationship. Don't think too deep about it. Just think about surface stuff.
Arient Posted November 9, 2014 Posted November 9, 2014 This is totally normal. It's just 2 months, so you will still feel up and down for quite a while. But it will get better, IT SURELY WILL. I'm 8 months post BU and 5 months since NC, but still, sometimes I still feel pretty down. But I'm so much better now compared to 3 months ago. Make healing an active process, a goal, and stick to it. Try your best!
Author polaske93 Posted November 9, 2014 Author Posted November 9, 2014 How do I heal? I try and distract myself, but I just moved to a city where I know no one. I look back and realize that I was more of a crutch, or someone to make her feel better then someone she actually loved. Sometimes it makes me feel better sometimes worse. The thing is I love her on a level I never thought I could love someone. After all the pain she put me through I still hope she is happy, I still want to see her do things she loves. I almost care more for her still to this day then I do about anyone, including myself. It sounds so dumb I know, but I can't seem to shake this feeling of love I have for her. I don't blame myself or her for things happening the way they do. I do understand why she did the things she did kind of.. idk now I'm just rambling on, but I feel like typing this out is a form of therapy..
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