I m having a very hard time.

[speranta14]

Good morning forum people...I will start by saying that I lived the most beautiful four month together with my boyfriend,but lately everything has changed...he is not sure whether we will be together long term or not ...after that talk we did not see each other for two weeks,also due to his work schedule .but he came to see me Sunday night and he seemed he was happy and had a good time .i did not bring the break up talk or anything .For me not seeing him two weeks it was really hard ....he left that night my apartment hugging me and kissing me.he looked extremely tired since he had to drive to work right away.....I know he cares ,I saw it in his eyes...I did not contact him until Wensday ,and neither he did .i did not want to seem pushy. I contact him couple of times on Wensday and asked him to call me when he gets a chance ....Thursday around 4 am in the morning he called but I missed his call....I woke up around 6.30 and I asked him if he was busy and that I overslept .he just responded ,yes'.i have tried to call yesterday couple of times and sent him few messages and today as well I called him once and asked him by message if he call the dealership place me and him has been ,so I can schedule an appointment to buy me a car.I know I ve tried to communicate with him past few days and maybe seemed pushy, but I think its something else ...I ve been crying on my own for the past three weeks .He knows I was emotional due to my PMS, but main reason of my pain is the relationship .i know he is a clear cut guy and not the type to not say anything if he wants to break up....I m very much in love with him and my eyes cried so many tears that I can't even cry ...I won't try to call him anytime soon anyomore ....it hurts so much knowing he has backed off and he left me....its so. , so hard,