nightmare4u5 Posted November 7, 2014 Posted November 7, 2014 (edited) Hi everyone. I will tell you my story and i hope you will listen because i am desperate and i need help,my story is alittle longer because i want to give you some details so you can understand what happened,and i hope you understand because my english is not very good, Thank You. My name is Florin i am 24 and i am from Romania but currently i live in Italy,when i was in high school in Romania, i fell in love with a girl, it was love at first sight for both, from the first time we saw each other and we started to date, she was living in the City and i was living 1H near the City, after 1 year i left the country and i moved in rent with my parents in Italy, after 2 years she contacted me on messanger, i convinced my parents to find a job for her and her mother and a place where to stay. We were so deep in love dat i couldn't stop smiling when she was around me. She is a very jealous person, and most of the friends i could make was girls, so i couldn't make any new friends because she didn't let me, and like it wasn't inofe she asked me to deleted all the girls numbers from my phone. i said ok, if its for her i will do anything, because i got her, the only girl i need. so in my free time i was playng on computer with some friend from childhood. After 1/2 years we started to dream about the future, about our house, about childrens and many happy things. she even maked a tattoo for me on her ribs that says I LOVE YOU written in chinese. We were the best friends! I was planning dat next year to make the engagement with her. It passed 4 years since she come in italy and we decided to live together,because we both wished this for a long time and she was alweys fighting with her mom and i had the same problems with my parents too.In the meantime she asked me to buy her a puppy, and i told her to w8 a little more until we move out, but she insisted. I was going in Romania for a month for an examen and to buy her the puppy. She taked an apartment preay expensive, because she couldn't find a cheaper one where we are allowed with animals because she had to leave dat apartment because the contract was almost expired. and in the meanwhile i lost my job too. When i returned in italy we move in the apartment she found. For 2-3 months i couldn't find a job,so i stayed home playing on the computer, walking the dog out, preparing food, cleaning the house and staff like dat. I started to be obsessed with the computer games and i started to ignore her more and more.the money for rent and taxes was never inofe, and we started to fight because of dat. after a half year she go in romania for 2 weeks and i had to go too for another examen and i stayed 1 week.i slept at her home, but all the week she was very distant from me, and i was feeling she didn't wanted me to go sleep at her home. I returned in italy and she remained in romania for 1 more week. After a few weeks i found a job for 3 months, but he paid me very bad, i was coming home only at night, because i had to work from 07-14/15 and then from 17-23. One day she call me when i was in the break, she was crying and she told me she wants to leave me, because i was pushing her away too much with my attitude and she cant take it animore. I asked her to calm down, and we will talk when i come home. for 1/2 weeks was everyday crying. one day i was sitting with her in the bed hugging her, and after few minutes she starts crying again. I asked her whats wrong, she told me a few months ago someone kissed her, my tears started to fall, after i calm down i told her i forgive her. After she saw i was not very mad at her, she said i did something else too with dat guy. I felt my heart will literally break to pieces, and i couldn't hold myself crying out loud. After a few days we decided to break out. Before she left in the last month, i started to ignore her even more and sometimes i didn't even say hi to her when i come home. On the last days before she leaves we started to get closer to each other, and she told me she will come back in 2 months after she take driving license and dat she found a room where to stay when she come back. She started to talk again about our future, about house, kids, and i felt like maybe we cold star from the beginning somehow, she maked me hope we can be together again. On 5 october was my birthday, on 7 oct was our anniversary of 5 years, and on 10 oct she leaved to romania. After a few days she calls me and she said that she decided to don't come back. I maked the usual mistakes and start crying and begging to come back like a desperate. After another few days, a guy calls me, he told me that everyday she's crying, and he want me to leave her alone because he's going out with her now, i was shocked when i heard she already have someone else after only 1 week, i asked him from how much time they are together, he said it's a long story, i didn't wanted to listen his story so i hang up the phone. Then i realized he's the guy witch who cheated me and it happened when we both go in romania when i stayed 1 week and her 2 weeks, where i mentioned earlier. After few days she calls me again from his phone and told me to never call her again or look for her, because i will never change and shes only suffering when i call her or when she think at me. It passed almost 3 weeks since we didant talk anymore. Last night i sent an email for a job and dat site asked me a second email address, so i used her old email that i maked for her, because i thought she don't use it anymore, because she hawe a new facebook and email. Then she sent me an email and she ask me "What's with this mail cuz i don't understand". I replayed her "I had to sent a mail for a job and they asked me a second email, i thought you don't use it anymore so i used your old email, sorry, it wont happen again" then she sent me another email. "Don't worry, and yes i still use it because i need an email too, to find a job and i am using this email...by the way i wanted to asked you, if my CD with a game remained at you...and what are you doing, is everything fine?". A little later i saw her online and i have a little chat with her so i can reply to the email she sent me, this is the conversation. ME- yes i have your cd, and yes everythings alright. SHE- ok that's fine, and maybe when you will have a little time someday maybe you will come to bring it to me, or to let it to my brother, ok i have to prepare myself to go at work, maybe we will talk again. ME-i wish you an easy work SHE-thanks and sorry if i disturbed you ME-its ok Did i do wrong answering her to her mail? And i don't get it, why did she said dat maybe i will bring her dat cd, and maybe we will talk again, when she told me to never search or call her EVER again. Why did she said this, what's on her mind?? I know i disappoint her when we moved on dat apartment, because i ignored her, i was irresponsible, i told her ugly wards, and i don't have words to say how sorry i am because i disappointed her and i ruined all the beautiful dreams we had toghether, and i ruined everything. But i still love her very much and i want her back, and i want to show her i am a better person and i learned my lesson. Soon i will go in romania for a week, and i don't know what to do,what to say to dont push her away even more so i can bring her back to me, cause meabe i will not go animore in romania for a few monts, and i am afraid dat is my last chance before i will lose her forever. She's at 1200 km away from me, with that stranger, how can i compete with dat? Please give me some advice anybody, i miss her so much:( Edited November 7, 2014 by nightmare4u5
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