in love

[confusedmonkey]

so I recently started working at this new job a month ago i met this person that also works there ever since ive laid eyes on him i fell hard! i mean i cant stop thinking about him dreaming about him i do anything just to try to talk to him or to get him to look at me. He gives me mixed signals sometimes i think theres something going on between us but then it seems like he doesn't even know who i am. I know he had a thing for me because i can tell when guys do im not ugly. ive had a lot of guys hit on me but there was a problem i told him i had a long term relation ship and now its like he doesn't even want to talk to me. i feel like im going crazy i get hit on every day at my job and yet he doesn't acknowledge me. When he does he gives me these intense stares i feel like im suffocating like time is moving slow yet my heart is beating rapidly. And when he smiles, oh god i feel like my legs start to shake. He makes me weak luckily im good at not showing my emotions. ive grown obsessed over him so much i wanted to leave my bf of three years! i feel so guilty ive lost interest in our relationship it makes me depressed. i hate that hes done this to me i wish i could go back a month so i would have never known he existed he drives me crazy i crave for his attention he makes me want to hate him but want to be him at the same time how could i feel this way about a guy ive only known for such little time. And now my bf is making me leave the job because he says ive changed when really ive fallen in love with a complete stranger! me and my bf are hs sweet hearts and i feel like now that weve grown up were starting to go different ways but he doesn't want to let go of me and our relatioinship is just getting worse and worse and now that this guy is in the picture its just gone down hill im so sad that hes making me leave that job because i will not see him probably ever again i hate feeling this way...

Edited November 7, 2014 by confusedmonkey