Zard0z Posted November 6, 2014 Posted November 6, 2014 Its been almos two months since she ended our 14 month relationship. She moved on pretty quickly with a guy she meton a dating service. They're already at the 'i love you stage' it seems. I wenr into panic mode after she let me know she was seeing a new guy so soon after the break up. I blew up, but we patched things over and said our goodbyes over email. Its been two weeks since i last sent her a text letting her know about my brothrr getting out of the hospital. (something we had talked about before doing NC). In our time apart I definitely felt the pain of her absence, there was never much closure since she never gave me a good reason, or retracted reasons she gave earlier. Im accepting now, that she was ready to move on. And if she hadnt ended it when she did, it still wouldn't have worked out. Im starting to see the positives in this. My intial fear and sadness is motivating me to be a more confident person. I have more time to exercise and have gained more muscle than i had before the relationship. Ive seriously thought about my future goals and have taken steps to prepare for grad school. Im even seeing another girl these days This break up gives me perspective I never would have had had we stayed together. She was my first and I was on Cloud 9 the whole time, but it would be kinda weird having been with only one girl my whole life. This gives me a furthrr confidence boost. But, that being said. I still want her. I know I don't need her anymore... but I want her....
preraph Posted November 7, 2014 Posted November 7, 2014 Well, she had an impact on you that you will always carry with you. Your relationship ran its course and you got the best out of it and should be happy you didn't run it into the ground and leave things bitter. You've done a great job working past your stress and now you're just distant enough from it to be feeling the ennui. I try not to think of every relationship that didn't last forever as lost love. Because the love is yours. It came from you and you gave it to her. But it's yours to keep. You never lose it. And you can give it to whoever you want. 2
Author Zard0z Posted November 7, 2014 Author Posted November 7, 2014 I probably will try to get in touch with her again. We were quite compatible but there was just a lot of uncertainty about our future and I think played a role. I want to show her Im serious about remaining in the country to study. But I can't do that until I know I'm over missing the relationship. And I'm not quite yet.
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