PersonaPersona Posted November 4, 2014 Posted November 4, 2014 My boyfriend (now ex again) we together back in March and ended not too soon after because he dumped me providing so many excuses when all he really wanted to say was that he felt nothing for me and was leaving me. After that I was heartbroken, I went NC and eventually he came back saying what he did was stupid. He wanted me back, and I had to think about giving him a second chance. I did, and this was back in August. Yesterday, I talked to him about how much he's been disrespecting me and my feelings, going days without talking to me, hanging out with his ex's, not being serious when being romantic, and the only thing he told me is that he didn't know how to stop hurting me. He said it's "just his personality" In the midst of all this, he told me for the first time that he loves me. I just didn't believe it. I couldn't. I didn't feel loved, or wanted at all. It all really hurt. Eventually, it was getting cold and I knew I had to wrap things up somehow, so I gave him a choice. I told him that he could stay with me and we could try to work things out, or he could walk away and lose me forever. He stood there for a good 15 minutes saying nothing with tears rolling down his face, and let me tell you, the silence killed me. Eventually he said, "I'm going home, I'm sorry" and walked away from me, leaving me out in the cold. I felt so alone and I started crying because this really meant the end. I have done this before but I didn't know it would hurt so much more the second time around. Just wanted to let my feelings out.
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