hopelessromanticchic Posted November 4, 2014 Posted November 4, 2014 (edited) This is going to be more of a rant than anything. If you guys decide to keep reading and or comment feel free. Any more fuel to my fire will be helpfull to go back to being content like i was. So, i made myself think that he just died.. That this is why i never got a freakin reply all those times i tried to talk to him. By ignoring me he made it crystal clear that i never meant **** to him and that i was the only one who was actually interested in having something serious one day. I was so stupid and naïve and i felt embarassed for myself putting myself in a situation like that. After almost 3 months since last time we talked this stupid idiot decides to send me a late night text saying "wyd". Thats it! You have no idea how mad i felt. 3 longest months of my life he dissappears and he has the decency to text me with a "wyd"....doesnt even bother to text me to see how i have been. Doest bother asking if im alive or if i was able to sleep or eat after he elegantly walked out of my life without saying anything at all to me. What an *******! I didnt reply to him of course because i know exactly why he randomly texted me with that useless text message. He was bored and none of his lady friends were paying attention to him. I know he doesnt miss me. Who does he think he is? I was fine. I was talking to someone else that numbed my pain for a few weeks but as always didnt work out and he disappeared out if this world too. A couple days after i decide that im going to be alot better alone that i need time to heal on my own and i need to find myself and be happy by myself. And there.... He reappears as if he smelled me moving on. And now. Im miserable. Again. Im finding myself thinking about him all the time yelling at myself for being so stupid to waste my thoughts and tears on someone who could care less about me. I did it before and ill be fin again...and even though im back to square one. He doesnr know im this miserable because i didnt give in to his game and didnt reply to him. For all he knows i dont want nothing to do with him. For all he knows i forgot about him and im happy with someone new. It just disgusts me. Did he actually think the way he approached me was going to make me run back to him like a little puppy again like i used to? Am i that worthless to him? Piece if sh*t. Im done ranting kus all im going to do from now on is curse him out. Edited November 4, 2014 by hopelessromanticchic 3
SoThatHappened Posted November 4, 2014 Posted November 4, 2014 You did the absolute right thing by not responding. It doesn't sound like this d-bag deserves you. Just from the way you wrote your post you sound like a great woman. You're not back to square-one. You got a breadcrumb, that's it. You'd be back at square-one if you responded and got hurt more. Take some solace in the face that, as you said, "for all he knows I forgot about him and I'm happy with someone new." Best-case-scenario. Good job. Keep staying strong and healing. He won't mean a thing soon enough. 1
Sad26 Posted November 4, 2014 Posted November 4, 2014 You did the right thing and I admire the guts and courage to not respond. I have a similar story where this girl disappeared and stopped responding to my messages. For the last past 5 months, I have literally begged her to please talk once and ends things decently but she would not give me that. While I am crying almost everyday she is enjoying her life and tweeting/facebooking her adventures. How cruel can people be. I wish I had your courage and determination. 1
Dante311 Posted November 4, 2014 Posted November 4, 2014 Sweetie, That's how it always happens. Just when we're finally reaching the PONR... Point of No Return. That small glimpse of content when their shadow doesn't loom over us anymore and we can finally be purely happy and enjoy our own time with someone new... they lurk... their shadow creeps on us, and finally we are overpowered by the past Stay Strong! Stay you! 1
Author hopelessromanticchic Posted November 4, 2014 Author Posted November 4, 2014 SoThatHappened, Thank you! I mean for all those times he ignored me he doesnt deserve my time. I was trying to be there for him and he took me for granted. Im proud of myself that i didnt give in. You're right im way far from square one because i am def not as miserable as i was at the beginning... I guess its just the anger i felt seeing that text from him. It brought back alot of emotions seeing his number in my text log. Sad26, You can do it too. Im telling you i was miserable at the beginning crying, lost weight, didnt have energy for anything. I went through a depression stage for a month. I developed very strong feelings for this person and it hurt that he just didnt care about them. It was easy for him to leave. The thing is they feed off that energy. The more miserable we are the bugger their ego. This girl you mentioned is acting out and thinks she has the power because she cut it off with you. Thinking you're going to be there if she comes back knowing you still have feelings for her. Make sure you dont give in, if she texts you and you decide to reply just seem uninterested. Make sure she doesnt know youre missing her or crying over her. What i have learned from this is to keep my wall up, my legs closed and catch no feelings until im aware of the relationship status. Dont give all your attention to just one person if theyre not doing the same for you. Dante311, I hate when they do that. It kinda ruins what you worked on while they were gone. But i guess only if you give in they can do this. If we play our part and make the rules this time around we dont have to get hurt. If we give in then get hurt its all on us. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me.
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