SeekedandDistroyed Posted November 2, 2014 Share Posted November 2, 2014 Well I was running around doing errands today and started thinking about my ex and what we'd be doing on this nice day. Wanted to break NC so I decided to post here instead. We mutually broke up a little over a month ago. Definitely needed atleast a break. Constant arguments, stress etc. I know she still loves me but love is never enough. After we broke up I spent a week trying to get back together with her. I told her my feelings and kept it as unpathetic as I could. When I realized I wasn't getting anywhere with that I told her I loved her and I'm gonna take this time to work on myself and that maybe down the road we can rekindle something. She said the same thing back and I went no contact. Since then I'm in breadcrumb hell lol. Every 3-4 days she'll text me. Wanting to see if I'm ok. Telling to be careful going out. That her dog misses me etc. Nothing constructive other than asking to meet for a drink once. I have responded but kept it short and distant. I turned down the meeting. The last 2 times she text me I did not respond. I've learned a lot on LS. I'm not sure if she's weening herself off me or keeping me on the backburner. She is not the type of person who is gonna crawl back either no matter what. I want her back. I miss my life with her. At the same time I'm trying to slowly move on. Tried online dating again but it's a brutal scene in NYC. Found a girl who was looking for a friend to go out with and see what happens. I figured she was in the same boat as me so I sent her a short message. No response. Oh no more rejection lol. Currently I've been chatting with an online girl who lives too far away to date but we're both enjoying the conversations. I also started going to my old local hangouts by myself. I have absolutely no support from my friends and family. Mostly because they wouldn't be good at it. It sucks being alone and thinking that the people that used to see you out with your girlfriend now see you sitting at the bar alone. It's embarrassing because you think they know. I've lost some weight. Been organizing things in my life and that makes me feel better. I know i'll find love again someday. I just don't want to give up on her yet. I feel better after that vent. Link to post Share on other sites
Reels Posted November 5, 2014 Share Posted November 5, 2014 So when you will be actually giving up on her? Have you got any hope? Link to post Share on other sites
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