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I know spring break is far from now. My ex and I just recently broke up, a little less than a month ago. I keep having this thought that she will go to panama city beach for spring break and will just get totally hammered and have some douchebag take advantage of her. I know what she does from this point I cant control or do anything about. But I do care about her well being, I guess its also because I care deeply about her as well. For the past 2 years I spent spring break with her at the same beach, it was memorable both times. She will get super hammered but I was always there to make sure she is okay, I dont have that responsibility anymore but I really do love this girl. It also might be my insecurities and self esteem, I can't picture her being with someone else. I know when time comes and its spring break season I will have every temptation to contact her. What can I do to prevent this from happening if lets say spring break comes and i still havent moved on completely? I want to block her from all social media just so I wouldnt have to see guys with her left and right.

 

I know this doesnt mean much but my ex is very attractive, really sexy girl with DD cups. She also use to be a model, guys hit on her left and right. This is why I feel she is superior to me, I guess me feeling not good enough to her. But then again, she was never my type from the start, But i let myself go and opened up to her love, now I find her the most attractive girl in my eyes.

 

What should I do about this? The thought of her getting smashed and taken advantage of. I hate this feeling, ugh

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You need to stop yourself from thinking about her. Stop torturing yourself. She'd gone. She gets to see people. You get to see people. Don't do Spring Break at that same place if you do it at all. Your access to her and her great body has passed and you need to accept it and move on. She was just a chapter in your book. There will be many more chapters. Go do something totally different during spring break outside your circle so you don't get to hear about her or see her at all. You've got to break the cycle of dwelling on her. I know it's hard, but it's a skill you have to learn as an adult. Good luck.

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I know what you're saying. Move on, and I honestly truly believe that. But whats slowing down the process is that I had a very physical relationship with her, we would have sex nearly anywhere and everywhere. She was that open about her sexuality and we both enjoyed ourselves, even to the very end of our relationship she said she loved pleasing me in all ways. We would experiment with each other, tried all types of things. This is what I think about all the time, even when she didn't want to have sex with me at times she would do it and try her best to please me. If she was on her period she would do something else and make sure I get off. It kills me to think of her doing that with anyone else. I just wanna stop it!!! Maybe finding another girl to channel the thoughts

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