Father'sGentleFlower Posted October 30, 2014 Posted October 30, 2014 We decided to "take a break" for about a month. The circumstances under which we broke up did not involve infidelity, lying, or anything of the sort. What happened is that he told me that he cared about me, but did not feel like he could return the same love I had for him back. He's always been a bit fickle. We broke up three weeks ago and he said he would contact me within a day, but I haven't heard from him since. I know we won't be getting back together. It could have been worse is what I kept telling myself, he has things to settle for himself I said. After all he's not the most mentally stable person (I believe he might have depression even if he doesn't realize it), in fact I'm worried about his safety. For the first couple weeks, I felt very sad and I started sleeping a lot more, like 12 hours or more. I would go to sleep and then wake up to upset to get out of bed. I know that my main concern with him should be how he feels, but I can't help feeling angry. Angry that I believed him when he said he loved and then he told me that he wasn't sure so casually at one point. I know he didn't mean to make me feel bad, but I felt like I was being played with. I'm trying to do things to distract myself and I like being around people, but I have a busy schedule that involves sitting at a computer for many hours and while working, I think of him. It's the strangest feeling, I want to hate him, but I don't. Even if I could, I don't feel like I'm allowed to. He may have not been a great boyfriend, but I know he needs someone to care about him as a friend. I did all I could to help him, but as much as I love him and care for him I cannot do anything unless he lets me in. I feel so angry and helpless.
HeartbrokenNewbie Posted October 30, 2014 Posted October 30, 2014 Cos you're a nice person x now get on with your life & try & remove the not nice person from your head.. As hard as it is! x
Author Father'sGentleFlower Posted October 30, 2014 Author Posted October 30, 2014 (edited) Cos you're a nice person x now get on with your life & try & remove the not nice person from your head.. As hard as it is! x Well that's good and all, but how? And he is nice, he's just indecisive and psychologically damaged (as I can see). Edited October 30, 2014 by Father'sGentleFlower
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