polaske93 Posted October 15, 2014 Posted October 15, 2014 We dated for 8 months, the connection we had was immediate, and strangely deep. We talked every day and night. We both suffer from anxiety and depression so we became each other's support system. The reLatinos hip was almost perfect, however she did some things in the beginning of the relationship that I was never able to completely forgive. I never trusted her and became needy/jealous/insecure. I noticed her Falling out of love with me and one day she finally ended it. We still talked though for a couple of weeks because neither of us really have friends so we were all that eachother had. I felt like she was going to ask me to take her back until I discovered that she was talking to one of the few friends I had. I was deviated because I introduced them to each other about a week before the breakup. In my gut I felt like she liked him from the moment she met him, she talked about him alot. And even pushed her bestfriend to talk to this guy, her best friend told me that my ex kept asking her how big his dick was. Anyway after a week of blowing up her phone I gave up, and sat in a depression for a couple of weeks until I was able to talk myself out of it. A few days ago I had a dream about her and couldn't fall back asleep, because I couldn't get my mind of her. The next morning she called me, I returned her call that night and I could hear sadness, she was crying. She told me she had been having anxiety and just wanted to hear my voice to calm her down. I talked to her for almost 30 minutes then let her go. The next day I was torn up at work with the thought of her, when I got a text from her saying she could "feel" that I was in a bad place and that she knew I was thinking about her. I never replied, lastnight the same thing happened I started getting really sad thinking about her, and before I could text her, as soon as I finished typing out a text to send to her. She text me again saying she knew I was thinking about her she "felt me thinking about her." She then called and said she dreams about me alot, and has been depressed. I miss her, and want more then anything to forgive her, but I can't get the thought of her and my friend out of my head. Deep down I know that she is just keeping me around like she does with all of her ex's, but at the same time I know I meant more on an emotional and mental level then any of her other ex's. I'm keeping my distance, and am honestly not looking to take her back, but would it be foolish of me to take her back? Even though she has cheated on me with 3 of her ex's, then started seeing my friend a few weeks after she left me. I know I sound stupid even asking this question, but I know she has deep psycho lo gi al issues, and I really believe that we are as perfect a match for one another as we both will ever find.. I'm just really struggling today nothing can take away this pain except her, and she is the one that is causing it :/
tikay00 Posted October 15, 2014 Posted October 15, 2014 Don't be her emotional tampon. It's one thing to be friend zoned by some female you never went out with, but can you imagine if your ex GF looks at you that way from now on??? That thought just makes me vomit. If you go too deep, she'll look at you as her gay friend that she can cry to. Translation: Absolutely no chance of reconciliation, and her attraction to you is like your attraction for one of your guy friends.
Reels Posted October 16, 2014 Posted October 16, 2014 She don't care about you really. If you want her, and she wants you, then wait for some years. You will better know.
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