Wu-Wei Posted September 16, 2014 Posted September 16, 2014 How you left me was unloving. It was cruel. It was denigrating, disrespectful, and humiliating. It was beyond any words in your vocabulary. You destroyed so many parts of me that were essential... vitally, existentially important to me. I don't know how I can ever be so innocent again. Yet, when I see Her I feel like I've come home from a long and distant journey. I've always known you never really liked me. You may have loved me because I took care of you... but you never really liked me. You were just too needy to leave me... until you decided to betray me. I hate you. I hate you not because of your betrayal and your cruelty. I hate you because I am humiliated. I hate you because I am still unable to stop hating you. Yet, when I see Her I feel like I've come home from a long and distant journey. I never felt that with you. I don't know how to be me I don't know how to be me without the pain of me... thinking you loved me, finding you betrayed me, knowing you spat on me. The wound you inflicted on me is deep... too deep. Deep in a way that wraps itself in you (me)... inflicts itself upon you (me)... twists itself into every fiber of you (me) and becomes you (me). It's every breath and every blink. Yet when I see Her I feel like I've come home from a long and distant journey.
Be_Strong Posted September 16, 2014 Posted September 16, 2014 "Yet, when I see Her I feel like I've come home from a long and distant journey." Is that how your ex-husband described his feelings towards the other woman?
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