ToastedHat Posted September 9, 2014 Posted September 9, 2014 Hey guys, I don't want to just drag this on since this has been going on for a while now, years even, but I only just figured out what's exactly wrong with me. I'll skip the melodramatic story since I know most of it isn't needed and half would skip reading it, just know that I'm currently 19, rough childhood with toxic friends, hospitalized from a mugging at 15, never had my first kiss until I turned 16 but I wasn't ready and she cheated, met this amazing girl late 2012 but chose to break up this time a year ago over a misunderstanding since resolved, happily she's said that she's willing to give us another chance. However, over the course of this year I've become more withdrawn, more depressed, more .. empty, as to say. It's really been the same throughout the year, I have tried to make friends but I lack the effort to do so, I just feel too withdrawn, that when I keep putting myself out there I look like an idiot or cause more problems than I wanted in the first place. Any friendly advice to throw my way?
Justaguy30 Posted September 9, 2014 Posted September 9, 2014 You should try speaking to a therapist and consider meds. My advice is keep trying to make friends. It shouldn't be hard though. If you meet someone that you think you will get along with then try to hang with them. If you they don't seem interested don't be discouraged. There are billions of people in the world and you are a young man. Everything takes time and you have plenty
Reels Posted September 9, 2014 Posted September 9, 2014 (edited) You are so young right now and you should not feel like this. You should try concentrating on making your life, because if you kept going off the track like this, it will only become harder for you. Edited September 9, 2014 by Reels
elseaacych Posted September 10, 2014 Posted September 10, 2014 Good therapist + meds if necessary. You are young and have a life full of possibility. Take the time to determine what you want out of life. Then when you feel like you can't move to do something, just make yourself. Sometimes its just the momentum of getting started that will keep you going.
Author ToastedHat Posted September 10, 2014 Author Posted September 10, 2014 I've spoken to my family and we've talked about it, I'll see if I can go into therapy for a while to sort my head out but I'm not that keen on meds, but we'll see. It's just .. I don't know, for the past few years in school most notably with how my friends usually mocked me I became so critical of myself, they were the main reason I was hospitalized from my mugging too. There's only really so much I can take, these days I tend to be the quiet guy in the back of the class .. the only time I felt actually content with my life and who I was the time I was dating my latest ex, I'm beyond pleased she's willing to give me another chance, but I just lack effort .. She's told me directly she would like to see the "confident, funny, attractive" side of me she fell in love with, but I can't, my emotions are too drained. I think therapy for a little while will just help set my head straight, I just want to be myself more than an introvert. I'll check back to give an update sometime.
Reels Posted September 12, 2014 Posted September 12, 2014 Don't take things too seriously, there are faults in everyone.
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