Sty2014 Posted September 8, 2014 Posted September 8, 2014 Me and my x gf broke up about a month ago. After 4 yrs of a bit of a roller coaster.. I think she feels drained. Lemme start at the top. I cheated. Why I cheated. Cuz I suffer from depression. An at the time I cheated. I had got evicted with my mother. An lost my job. So i was kinda lost. So my gf and her mom allowed us to move in with them. But in my mind I was weak an I felt like a burden. An I was thinking very negative. So I felt as if I was preparing myself for the inevitable. I thought she was gonna break up with me. But she do don't. But by the time I realized that I already stepped out on the relationship. So she found out. An I didn't let her go. So she stayed but... She kept bringing it up an she kept saying how would it feel if I did it... So me listening to my friends I made a bad decision. An it got real messy. Anyway long story short.. She told me that she puts me in the same class as her father.. He cheated on her mom.. And hurt her deeply.. So she said she puts me in the same class as him. She hates her father by the way. It took time for me to grow. I'm 25. She's 26. But she's cheated on me out of revenge. An flirted with other guys an I caught all that. An accepted it. An said we can move past all that. So about a month ago. She tells me I need a break and space to forgive you. I need to love me. Then she tells me she needs space.. Then it goes into a break up. I love her dearly. I do. 4 yrs of my life has been with her. I've chose her. Then she tells me that it's another guy. She said he shows her things She never seen. An he gives her feelings she never felt. But yet... She likes all my post on Facebook. I text her no response. I call her she may answer... But it's a short convo an she says she has to go. It's like I wanna move on. But it's very difficult. I'm done begging. I'm done pleading. My life is getting better. But with her in my life it would be better.
ThorntonMelon Posted September 8, 2014 Posted September 8, 2014 You cheated, you lost her. And you didn't cheat because of depression. You cheated because you have poor self-control. Your depression simply helped you rationalize your poor self-control. Fix yourself or the next relationship will blow up just as badly.
NC-Thomas Posted September 8, 2014 Posted September 8, 2014 You make it seem as if you are the victim. Please take responsibility for your actions instead of blaming it on losing your job and being depressed. We all make mistakes, but we only learn from it when we truly look at ourselves for what we are. Move on from her, there no longer is a solid basis for trust. It's gone.
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