wendywanderer Posted September 8, 2014 Posted September 8, 2014 Hi everyone. My ex boyfriend and I had been going out 5 years, this was our 3 major break up in that time - and that was just over a month ago. Things had been going sour for a while, and I was very angry and frustrated with how he had been doing things for a while. As a result, i felt that all my attempts at working on the relationship were futile, even though we were going for couples counselling. He took the counselling seriously, it was him who said less than 2 months ago that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. But try just sit down and chat about one issue, and he clams up, wont talk and even worse, obviously stared at me and ignored me. Initially at the beginning of August i was absolutely devastated, still living with him and begged for him to change his mind - especially seeing as I really didn't believe that he had given it a good enough chance. It was all so unfair and out of control. But then some kind of miracle happened a few days later and I woke up with new resolution that i had had enough of his bull****. All has been going well so far. I managed to sort out work, find a great place to stay and move out. But then last night, before bed and after a bit of a difficult weekend, I saw on his friend's whatsapp picture that he had gone to a festival party with friends. clearly having a great time. This would be all well and good if it wasn't for the fact that through the whole of our relationship, he ran down these kinds of parties and refused to ever attend one with me. I am blown away and feel totally cheated inside. I was so anxious last night i hardly slept. I woke this morning with a massive lump in my chest and I honestly don't know what the heck is going on with me. Why has this affected me so much and how can i make it stop?
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