Do you ever just look through your post history from start to finish and get upset?

[Emissary]

I started dating in 2010 when I was 22 years old. It's funny, whenever there's something going on in the relationship department for me, I'm on this website, so I can get a pretty good picture of things over time.

 

I git really sad reading around the middle of all my posts because that's when I met Rebecca. I read through all those early posts leading up to me asking her out, and it was such a happy experience, but after that it just went so downhill. I've honestly been miserable for it the past year, and if I could only have known back then how much pain I was going to be in soon.

 

Earlier before that I had my now forgotten obsession over Nicole, my co-worker. She was a clearly awful human being who deserves the worst and I knew it, but it didn't stop me from wanting her so badly.

 

Tanika was the first crush I ever made a move on. I was so clueless back then. I didn't even have a date plan as I fumbled my words asking if she wants to go out.

 

Maddison, I was never truly interested in her, but I still dated her and came to appreciate her, it burned me up when she just wanted to be friends.

 

Tamera, We had the most epic coffee date of my life, lasted 4 hours and we didn't realize it until the shop started closing up. It went so well I was certain we were going to meet up again, but we never did, she texted me back the next couple of days, but then stopped.

 

Kayla, she was my customer for years before we reconnected on PlentyofFish, we quickly hit it off and set up a casual date in the park. We never went because she got sidetracked or whatever. Eventually she stopped texting me. I deleted her number and unfriended her, and then I see her on Tinder. I hit Yes just to see what happens and she hits Yes as well. We sent each other a flirty message, and then I turned it up full blast and roasted that bitch, I hope it stung quite a bit.

 

Jessica, Even though I wanted her more than any other for a good while, she always kind of fell back in priority, mostly because I just can't figure her out. I've given her my number twice, she even asked for it the second time, yet I've never heard from her, what's up with that?

 

Finally, Angie, the current girl. I have a feeling this is finally the one that's going to work out. For once everything is going exactly as it should be in a normal situation.

[Assasda]

It all works out if you concentrate on having fun, and learning more about your partnet

[Supernatural]

Dating is pretty silly.

[Wisecrack]

Nah I am wow'd by my growth to be honest. In no way am I a veteran here but also elsewhere and to see how much of a doormat I use to be to now, I'm pretty happy.

 

I think you've just got to look at your past, learn from the mistakes and move on. No point hanging onto the past.

[PegNosePete]

No but I sometimes look through my posting history and think wow with all that time I could have learned a new language or written a book or got a 2nd job or hopped around the world one one leg....

[Toodaloo]

Not been on here long enough but I did find my old diary that I used to keep years ago.

 

You know what the mens names may have changed but everything else was still the same. Still the same insecurities, worries and dreams and it hit me that it was about time I did something about that...

 

All that angst and for what? How far have I really come? Not very. What a waste of time and effort over a load of old bo&&ocks...

 

Work is far better. My business relationships are much better. I am happier, being paid better money...

 

I have better relationships with family members, my handful of friends are completely loyal and wonderful people so I feel "safer"...

 

Love life? Well that just sucks. Still its not the be all and end all. There are other dreams that I set aside for "love" over the years and now I have decided not to. Its tough to rearrange my thinking and I feel mostly bemused by it all.

 

Working on it...

[BluEyeL]

I posted here for about three months last year and I came back a couple of weeks ago. It's like I'm a different person now. I was confused and such a rookie back then.