doris123 Posted September 1, 2014 Posted September 1, 2014 (edited) Hi, I thought to share it and have your guidelines to help me getting through this(I try to keep it short). my GF broke up with me after silly fight we had(one of a many) I know she was “loaded” long time about things I used to tell her. for some reason my trust on her went down (she wished to one of her ex happy birthday privately on facebook(according to her he wasnt really an “ex” but it doesn’t really matter now) Anyway I started to dig on her past asked lots of heartful silly questions (how easy you sleep with guys, are you nice with everyone this way? I became also a jealous.. things that are not really me when I am confident with a girl. anyway she broke up with me. We werent talking for 3 days while I keep the no-contact role. Meanwhile I made some thoughts with myself and understand my problem and that I had with her serious trust issues and wasn’t sure where it came from. I know i have to work on it. and get better (if not for this relationship than for the next ones). Anyway she contacted me in the 3rd day(after we broke up) via facebook message (I have to say that the day before I unfriended her on facebook) she wrote lots of bad quotes of mine from our 4 months that I used to tell her(ofcoruse she took many things out of context but still she got lots of truth in her words) Also in the message she wrote that she couldnt see me as her truth partner and although she know everything come from good meanings she didnt expect it to end this way but mybe it’s for the best. I wasnt sure if that long message was like a “final-breakup-msg” or gods know what? I didnt reply and after a week she texted me again that she want us to talk. In the beginning I wasnt sure what she wanted but she acted like this conversation it's just another finish conversation because she left the apartment in a rude way. I was pretty much antipathy and just said that I try to learn from my mistakes. anyway she sounded very mad - was hard to speak with her. we finished the conversation with no idea. she texted me few mins after we hanged up.. "how can it be that I am not showing any feelings and such..." I didn't answer that either(although I was dying t0). After 6 days(two weeks after our breakup) I went to a party. on the way I found she is going to be there and I went there anyway. when I saw her it was completely overwhelmed for me. Felt like I am going back to day one. I tried to catch myself when I saw her. I was nice.. like how you doing.. and she said that was surprise to find me there. anyway that short conversation was finished after 40 seconds. I couldn't be there and I left the party right away(else I knew I gonna do something really stupid). I only can guess that she noticed later that I left instantly when she didnt see me anymore. Since then I felt like I am starting from day one. What do you think guys? Did I lost my leverage ? any chance she gonna do any move? what about me? am I really starting no-contact right from the start? thank you all. Edited September 1, 2014 by doris123
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