Almost 3 years since I last visited Loveshack. Here's what I have to say.

[Sake]

The last time I visited Loveshack was on 27th/Nov/2011 at 4:29PM EST. About a 1 and 1/2 after the breakup that changed everything.

 

I won't lie to you. Even though I'm over her, I still think about the girl that broke my heart from time to time. I've only been in about two real relationships since we broke up four years ago (ladies man I know ). I can honestly say they've helped me move forward in my life and even when one of them ended it didn't hit me as hard as it did with the original ex. In fact, it hardly hit me at all. A part of it has to do with me turning somewhat apathetic but most of it is maturity. I can honestly say I'm much more empathetic towards other human beings and I am much more educated and well spoken than before so its not like I've turned into an ******* over the years. In fact its quiet the opposite. I turned into a misogynist after being devastated over what my ex did to me (left me for some dude) but now I place great emphasis on feminism (particularly neo-marxist and post-modernist interpretations). I've done a 180 in these last four or so years and I can see it in myself.

 

But I still think of her sometimes, I still get a little bit sad and memories of her can overwhelm me on a blue moon.

 

What does this mean?

 

Nothing.

 

Its supposed to be this way I think. I don't try to fight it back, I just sort of accept it and try my best to carry on (takes hardly any effort now). Trust me when I say this, it WILL get BETTER. I won't sit here and tell you that...you'll one day just completely forget about him/her (you might depending on who you are) but they do just sort of fade away as time passes on. You acquire new responsibilities, new lifestyles, new friends and hobbies and even new lovers. You experience new joys and new tragedies and you even experience nothing at times. What I'm saying is that life does not end even though it may seem like it (haven't we all been there?). This might just sound like generic motivational crap, but I assure you, I know how it feels to be absolutely GUTTED inside. I know how loneliness feels, I know the grittiness of what it feels like to... have everyone in your life system pass you by while you're just standing there with the shattered remains of your dignity, spirit and joy.

 

This probably won't help the majority of you who really need to just experience it for yourself but as long as I can reach out to at least one person, this post wasn't pointless.

 

 

Edit: I even had multiple accounts on Loveshack asking similar questions hoping to get different answers. I had at least 5 accounts mostly because I was afraid the people in the forums were tired of hearing my story. This is the only account I remember. Its the most recent one I created. The reason why I wanted to let you guys know about this is because to show you how crazy I was about this whole ordeal. Now I look back and laugh....because it is kinda funny to be honest.

Edited August 31, 2014 by Sake

[Koans]

How long were yall together and has she ever returned back in some form or fashion.

[Sake]

We were together in total about 3.5 years which is a long time when you're 14-15. (I'm 23 now). It wasn't just puppy love or anything, it was a lot more sophisticated than that but at the same time I don't want to romanticize it.

 

To put it short, yes she had tried to hint me a lot of times throughout our break up. Even when she got together with her now boyfriend of 4 years (two - three weeks after we had broken up). Maybe if I played it better I would be with her right now but you know what, chances are she was stringing me along the entire time as a second option. She really loved me at one point and while I can say for sure she was influenced by others (e.g. her friends, possibly family) the decision was hers to make. Don't get your hopes up is what I'm trying to say. If they want to be with you, they'll try to be with you.

[Koans]

4 yrs is pretty crazy. That even matches or surpasses your history. Mines is similar but she lasted only 5 months with the guy. She then tried to add me on social media. I emailed back a hate mail then she tried to friend zone me immediately. So immediately like the next day...I located my balls and other than telling her that I still loved her. I let her know i didnt want to be her friend coz she kicked me out her life. And that I will never forgive her if she doesnt want to make right of what went wrong. And that she is the one to blame for not being honest with her emotions. I did leave the door open, in terms of saying, "When youre serious call me. And only call me". But like friends...is this really the kinda g/f i want?. **** no. A real man is a catch. Dont let these biitzch azzz lil gurlz fux with u.